Havent posted in utterly long.
Do'nt really have much to write down.
i mean, i have alot to say.
but idk.
Just havent been feelin it.
=/
maybe later.
maybe never.
Love yall none the less.
WORD to da DEATH.
=Milli Millz=
aka Miss. Never dedicated.
signin off the hurtful truth.
cuz the truth DOES hurt.
Monday, March 16, 2009
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
SCHOOL KiLLiNG
Teen gunman dead after killing 15 at German school
WINNENDEN, Germany – A 17-year-old gunman dressed in black opened fire at his former high school in southwestern Germany on Wednesday then fled in a hijacked car, killing at least 15 people before police shot him to death, state officials said.
The gunman entered the school in Winnenden and opened fire, shooting at random, police said. He killed nine students, three teachers and a passer-by outside the building, officials said.
"He went into the school with a weapon and carried out a bloodbath," said regional police chief Erwin Hetger. "I've never seen anything like this in my life."
Triggering a land and air manhunt, he hijacked a car, freed the passengers and drove about 25 miles (40 kilometers) before police found him. When confronted, he killed two bystanders in a shootout with police before he was slain, Baden Wuerttemburg governor Guenther Oettinger said. Two officers were seriously injured, but there was no immediate information on other casualties.
Four hours after the shootings began, police announced the teenager's death.
It was the nation's worst shooting since another teenage gunman killed 16 people and himself in another high school in 2002.
Concerned parents quickly swarmed the school, which was evacuated.
Police have have identified the gunman only as Tim K, who graduated last year from the school of about 1,000 students.
The German government was "deeply shocked and incensed about the appalling killing spree," Ulrich Wilhelm, a spokesman for Chancellor Angela Merkel, said in Berlin.
In 2002, 19-year-old Robert Steinhaeuser shot and killed 12 teachers, a secretary, two students and a police officer before turning his gun on himself in the Gutenberg high school in Erfurt, in eastern Germany.
Steinhaeuser, who had been expelled for forging a doctor's note, was a gun club member licensed to own weapons. The attack led Germany to raise the age for owning recreational firearms from 18 to 21.
i was jus going into my yahoo mail, and saw this.
Turned my stomach for the worst.
Just goes to show you, you never know whose who and when you may go.
smfh.
goin to lay back down.
dont feel to well anyway.
=Milli Miillz=
WINNENDEN, Germany – A 17-year-old gunman dressed in black opened fire at his former high school in southwestern Germany on Wednesday then fled in a hijacked car, killing at least 15 people before police shot him to death, state officials said.
The gunman entered the school in Winnenden and opened fire, shooting at random, police said. He killed nine students, three teachers and a passer-by outside the building, officials said.
"He went into the school with a weapon and carried out a bloodbath," said regional police chief Erwin Hetger. "I've never seen anything like this in my life."
Triggering a land and air manhunt, he hijacked a car, freed the passengers and drove about 25 miles (40 kilometers) before police found him. When confronted, he killed two bystanders in a shootout with police before he was slain, Baden Wuerttemburg governor Guenther Oettinger said. Two officers were seriously injured, but there was no immediate information on other casualties.
Four hours after the shootings began, police announced the teenager's death.
It was the nation's worst shooting since another teenage gunman killed 16 people and himself in another high school in 2002.
Concerned parents quickly swarmed the school, which was evacuated.
Police have have identified the gunman only as Tim K, who graduated last year from the school of about 1,000 students.
The German government was "deeply shocked and incensed about the appalling killing spree," Ulrich Wilhelm, a spokesman for Chancellor Angela Merkel, said in Berlin.
In 2002, 19-year-old Robert Steinhaeuser shot and killed 12 teachers, a secretary, two students and a police officer before turning his gun on himself in the Gutenberg high school in Erfurt, in eastern Germany.
Steinhaeuser, who had been expelled for forging a doctor's note, was a gun club member licensed to own weapons. The attack led Germany to raise the age for owning recreational firearms from 18 to 21.
i was jus going into my yahoo mail, and saw this.
Turned my stomach for the worst.
Just goes to show you, you never know whose who and when you may go.
smfh.
goin to lay back down.
dont feel to well anyway.
=Milli Miillz=
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Life.
Almost lost mine tonight.
I love you Tasha, Tay, & Esther.
Talk about it more tomorrow.
Too many thoughts flowin through this brain of mine.
Nite.
<3
I love you Tasha, Tay, & Esther.
Talk about it more tomorrow.
Too many thoughts flowin through this brain of mine.
Nite.
<3
Thursday, February 26, 2009
MY OLD LADY.
I almost forgot-- talking about missing home.
i miss my grandmama's. (My mom's mom and my dad mom)
i just spoke to both of them yesterday, my mom mom-- Mama Milly via AIM. yes, she's on aim cuz she's a 5th grade teacher, and she's nowhere near OLD so she be on it too. lol.
And i spoke to my father moms---Mama Tina via phone. She told me she's doing well, and wants me to go to church with her, something im not into, but that's a whole other post. But jeah, she's well and still crazy.
Mama Milly though, she just sent me a pic of her and her boo. lol , yes her "boo". And i must say, she's looking better than ever. I love her so much. See you soon mama!!! =*
Word to my grandmamas!
=Milli Millz=
TALKiN MY SHiT
Hey hey hey fam-lay. I just got back from step practice, exhausted as hell, watching "Family Matters," on Nick at Nite. Urkel got me rollinnnnn, such a throw back yo. And as im watching it, im peeping the style and how dope they dressed back then, and how we NOW copy the same scheme and turn it into our own. In my past life, i was born back in those days, dead ass. lol.
Step practice went really good. Competition is on Saturday at Williams College at 8pm and it hasn't hit my step squad as yet, but i know once we hit that stageee, man oh man are we gona feel it. Last year we placed "Peoples Choice," which was not bad at all, being that we only had 2 weeks to prepare and we were the under dogs, being from MCLA, and MCLA's 1st step squad that actually had their shit together. So, you know, we were really proud of ourselves. But this year, i feel it in my heart and soul, NEXXUS has a huge chance at placing. So much time and dedication put into our routines and feet, i know we got this. We got alot of swag on my squad, so once we hit that stage and all eyes on us, there's no looking back! i should have a video up of our performance once its over-- so look out for that =).
Oh, and i just changed the channel to the Food Network, my 2nd favorite TV station after Cartoon Network, and "Iron Chef" is on. I fucks w. Bobby Flay and Kat Kora, i'm tryna step my cooking game up like them-- Word! Tonight's secret ingrident (pardon the spelling), is KING LOBSTER and CRAB. Omgg- my mouth just watered. I miss home so much. My step pops could cook a meann curry crab with potatoes and corn... LAWDD!!!! (Jamacian accent) Spring Break will be here on March 13th, then i'll be back on campus March 23rd. What will i be doing for spring break? Beats me. I probably just chill with hommies and my little brothers and look for a job for the summer time. Sounds like a plizan! Diggy?
Talking about food though-- i haven't eaten anything today besides chicken fingers and fries, and that was at 2 o'clock. So i'm about to run upstairs and see what's popping in the kitchen. If anything at all! Oh, and Jenny left to NY once again, so im in my dorm room--- for doli.
Headn to the kitchen, jus call me Garfield.
(Ha! Bet you ain get that!!)
=Milli Millz=
Step practice went really good. Competition is on Saturday at Williams College at 8pm and it hasn't hit my step squad as yet, but i know once we hit that stageee, man oh man are we gona feel it. Last year we placed "Peoples Choice," which was not bad at all, being that we only had 2 weeks to prepare and we were the under dogs, being from MCLA, and MCLA's 1st step squad that actually had their shit together. So, you know, we were really proud of ourselves. But this year, i feel it in my heart and soul, NEXXUS has a huge chance at placing. So much time and dedication put into our routines and feet, i know we got this. We got alot of swag on my squad, so once we hit that stage and all eyes on us, there's no looking back! i should have a video up of our performance once its over-- so look out for that =).
Oh, and i just changed the channel to the Food Network, my 2nd favorite TV station after Cartoon Network, and "Iron Chef" is on. I fucks w. Bobby Flay and Kat Kora, i'm tryna step my cooking game up like them-- Word! Tonight's secret ingrident (pardon the spelling), is KING LOBSTER and CRAB. Omgg- my mouth just watered. I miss home so much. My step pops could cook a meann curry crab with potatoes and corn... LAWDD!!!! (Jamacian accent) Spring Break will be here on March 13th, then i'll be back on campus March 23rd. What will i be doing for spring break? Beats me. I probably just chill with hommies and my little brothers and look for a job for the summer time. Sounds like a plizan! Diggy?
Talking about food though-- i haven't eaten anything today besides chicken fingers and fries, and that was at 2 o'clock. So i'm about to run upstairs and see what's popping in the kitchen. If anything at all! Oh, and Jenny left to NY once again, so im in my dorm room--- for doli.
Headn to the kitchen, jus call me Garfield.
(Ha! Bet you ain get that!!)
=Milli Millz=
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
LADiES iN DRESSES
So i didn't watch the Oscars.
I honestly don't even know when it aired.
I think i was busy with shit going on here on campus.
But as i was about to go check my Yahoo mail.
That little slide show popped up previewing who wore what and etc.
So i click on it and saw some dope shit.
Here they are:
From top to bottom:
1. Taraji Henson
I honestly don't even know when it aired.
I think i was busy with shit going on here on campus.
But as i was about to go check my Yahoo mail.
That little slide show popped up previewing who wore what and etc.
So i click on it and saw some dope shit.
Here they are:
From top to bottom:1. Taraji Henson
2. Miley and Heidi
3. Marisa Tomei
These ladies TRiED iT! Dresses are rather flyy, real elegant, classical, but with a twist of brand new! But my favorite one is Miley's, & i dont even fuck w. her like that. Tru Woo. She killed it, hair coulda been a lil more proper but i guess that's the look-- Nonetheless, the dress is real proper, def something i would rock.
Looking at these ladies, makes me wana become more in touch with my "feminine side". More skirts, dresses, and shoes. But i feel like i'll be fronting cuz i'm more of the sneaker, skinnies, tank top type of gurl.
Whatever though.
Like it or Love it!
Diggy!!
Radio Show tomor-- so i gota go prepare for it.
Unoooooooooooooooooooooooo !
=Milli Millz=
Monday, February 23, 2009
WORD
Sleep early tonight; Gota catch up on my naps man.
But i just wana leave ya'll with this:
In this world;
all you have is your Word.
Tash couldn't have said it better. <3
Word.
=Milli Millz=
But i just wana leave ya'll with this:
In this world;
all you have is your Word.
Tash couldn't have said it better. <3
Word.
=Milli Millz=
Sunday, February 22, 2009
FiXiNG THiS BUM ASS BLOG
I'm trying to fix up my blog, as my mind is right now.
Only if i knew how to do my lay out.
I'ma fuck with it til i get it tho.
On the phone with Zoey.
& he just said : "i admire your enthusiasm."
Thats because i'm telling him about my plans for the summer 09-- or rather my life all together.
I just wana live.
Word.
=Milli Millz=
Only if i knew how to do my lay out.
I'ma fuck with it til i get it tho.
On the phone with Zoey.
& he just said : "i admire your enthusiasm."
Thats because i'm telling him about my plans for the summer 09-- or rather my life all together.
I just wana live.
Word.
=Milli Millz=
SUBLiMiNALS?
Woke up this morning, after a long ass night of DJ'n in my room-- had my hommies dancing on beds and shit. lmao. I drank alot, but for some reason, it didn't hit me how it usually does. Guess I'ma G now. Lol.
As of lately, alot of shit been going on, as mentioned before, and they really are not getting to me, after that talk with my sis a$h, she made me realize what good is it holding on to something that is not contributing anything positive in my life? And i just shook my head and said yo, you're def right. So shout outs to a$h money for that one, & check out her bloggington: http://www.kishmyash.com/.
Now, the title of this post, is... as you can see: SUBLiMiNALS.
Why people choose to do it, i have no clue. All i'm saying is if you feeling some kind of way, do something. Like the MTA slogan go: "If you see something, say something." And that's not only relevant to terrortist and shit. lol.
Feeling like Hovito right now:
"You know they lame, you feel ashamed, but you love 'em the same. It's like when nuccas make subliminal records (also know as messages!) If it ain't directed directly at MILLZ, I don't respect it. You don't really want it with MiLLi, for the record. I put a couple careers on hold, you could be next kid! Keep entering the danger zone. You gon' make that gurl Jamila put your name in a song (also known as BLOG! lmao)If you that hungry for fame, motherfucker c'mon. Say when, take ten paces and spin.
But on another note: Bout to continue doin my thing aye!"
lmao. im such a fool. But on some gee shit-- thats exactly how i feel right now. Who said music couldn't speak for you? Shit I just want people to own up to the massive bullshit that they've built up around themselves. Be a man or woman. Muhvafuqa's got too much Pride now a days, and thats gona be the death of alot of ya'll. And like Mr. Carter said, if it aint directed directly at me...im not guna Respect a person or anything else they do or are about-- as an individual. All i'm do is take note of it, like im doing right now. I know when i feel some way, im writing nuccas names in my away, status, it dont matter. Why? Cuz i dont want nobody telling me im throwin subliminals, and thats tru woo. But i keep forgetting, alot of muhvafuq's arent no where near built like me, so i guess the world is gona continue to be this way for a while.
And this is just sad. But fuck it, you live and learn, and nuccas just took my ass to school.
I may be back with some further thoughts. Since my mind is on a "Milli Millz A Million A Minute."
What you want me to do?!
Im Sorryy...
- Hov's voice.
Word to Real Shit.
=Milli Millz=
As of lately, alot of shit been going on, as mentioned before, and they really are not getting to me, after that talk with my sis a$h, she made me realize what good is it holding on to something that is not contributing anything positive in my life? And i just shook my head and said yo, you're def right. So shout outs to a$h money for that one, & check out her bloggington: http://www.kishmyash.com/.
Now, the title of this post, is... as you can see: SUBLiMiNALS.
Why people choose to do it, i have no clue. All i'm saying is if you feeling some kind of way, do something. Like the MTA slogan go: "If you see something, say something." And that's not only relevant to terrortist and shit. lol.
Feeling like Hovito right now:
"You know they lame, you feel ashamed, but you love 'em the same. It's like when nuccas make subliminal records (also know as messages!) If it ain't directed directly at MILLZ, I don't respect it. You don't really want it with MiLLi, for the record. I put a couple careers on hold, you could be next kid! Keep entering the danger zone. You gon' make that gurl Jamila put your name in a song (also known as BLOG! lmao)If you that hungry for fame, motherfucker c'mon. Say when, take ten paces and spin.
But on another note: Bout to continue doin my thing aye!"
lmao. im such a fool. But on some gee shit-- thats exactly how i feel right now. Who said music couldn't speak for you? Shit I just want people to own up to the massive bullshit that they've built up around themselves. Be a man or woman. Muhvafuqa's got too much Pride now a days, and thats gona be the death of alot of ya'll. And like Mr. Carter said, if it aint directed directly at me...im not guna Respect a person or anything else they do or are about-- as an individual. All i'm do is take note of it, like im doing right now. I know when i feel some way, im writing nuccas names in my away, status, it dont matter. Why? Cuz i dont want nobody telling me im throwin subliminals, and thats tru woo. But i keep forgetting, alot of muhvafuq's arent no where near built like me, so i guess the world is gona continue to be this way for a while.
And this is just sad. But fuck it, you live and learn, and nuccas just took my ass to school.
I may be back with some further thoughts. Since my mind is on a "Milli Millz A Million A Minute."
What you want me to do?!
Im Sorryy...
- Hov's voice.
Word to Real Shit.
=Milli Millz=
Saturday, February 21, 2009
SUCCESSFUL
--"i want it all.
that's why i strive for it.
diss me & you'll never hear a reply for it.
any awards show or party I get fly for it.
i know that it's comin'.
i just hope that I'm alive for it."
-Drake.
i just wana be Successfulllllllll.
Song on repeat.
Last night was a kee kee.
Why nuccas front? thats the question of the night but yo fuck it. lol. Still feeling kinda goop'd from last night.
Patron?
Jose?
Long island ice tea?
Bacardi Limon?
Part 2 tonight?!?
Today is the boys last bball game, so im finna get dressed for that then the rest is in the hands of my gurls.
My life is movin smoove man.
I'm trying my best not to stress the things that i really have no control over til im 110% sure i even need to take time out to handle it.
Feel me?
Bbl yall
Brooklyn Born, Hispanic Blood.
Word to my muhvaland.
=Milli Millz=
that's why i strive for it.
diss me & you'll never hear a reply for it.
any awards show or party I get fly for it.
i know that it's comin'.
i just hope that I'm alive for it."
-Drake.
i just wana be Successfulllllllll.
Song on repeat.
Last night was a kee kee.
Why nuccas front? thats the question of the night but yo fuck it. lol. Still feeling kinda goop'd from last night.
Patron?
Jose?
Long island ice tea?
Bacardi Limon?
Part 2 tonight?!?
Today is the boys last bball game, so im finna get dressed for that then the rest is in the hands of my gurls.
My life is movin smoove man.
I'm trying my best not to stress the things that i really have no control over til im 110% sure i even need to take time out to handle it.
Feel me?
Bbl yall
Brooklyn Born, Hispanic Blood.
Word to my muhvaland.
=Milli Millz=
Friday, February 20, 2009
REALiZATiON
Been gone for a minute now im back with the Jump- off.
i havent been posting for a while, honestly--i just got kinda bored with it and i been all over the place; Literally and Mentally.
Alot of shit has gone down for the past week that caused me not to post. Some i rather not touch bases with but alot having to do with Relationships, Friendships, anything that ends in 'ships' basically.
Yesterday, i realized for the very first time in the 19 years of my life that i really do not give a fuck about a lot of things-- that i once did. I always seem to put other peoples feelings into consideration when most of the time, those people never even think twice about how Jamila just might feel. So with that said, i've been searching for a way to keep myself happy instead of worrying about others and their issues. That's all i ever done for people that i consider my nuccas, is look out for them and in the long run, their loyalty to me disperses into the air, into the cracks of the ground in which we walk on, into nowhere. And im just about tired of putting my hand out when in need, and noone being there to grab it for me. Not that i need that, but it's nice every once and a while to have that person do so for you.
i got my gurls, that ive been thru DRAMA with since day 1, regardless of our ups and downs, they never fail me to bounce back. Then theres other friends that rather put me on the side because they think they are the only muhvafuq's goin thru whatever thay maybe goin through. New Flash: You're not. But like i said, I'm good off alot of you mofo's.
Its time to Realize we may become better people if we tried to help ourselves find happiness, rather than feeling sorry for ourselves.
Ungrateful people kill me.
And im know that this wont be the last time i encounter something like this.
All it takes is preparation.
And im good.
Hopefully ill get back to this blogging shit in full speed like i once was.
But im real focused on school and family.
If you dont understand then you just dont.
I wont ever force one to do so.
With a luke warm heart-- cuz she jus stopped giving a fuck.
=Milli Millz=
i havent been posting for a while, honestly--i just got kinda bored with it and i been all over the place; Literally and Mentally.
Alot of shit has gone down for the past week that caused me not to post. Some i rather not touch bases with but alot having to do with Relationships, Friendships, anything that ends in 'ships' basically.
Yesterday, i realized for the very first time in the 19 years of my life that i really do not give a fuck about a lot of things-- that i once did. I always seem to put other peoples feelings into consideration when most of the time, those people never even think twice about how Jamila just might feel. So with that said, i've been searching for a way to keep myself happy instead of worrying about others and their issues. That's all i ever done for people that i consider my nuccas, is look out for them and in the long run, their loyalty to me disperses into the air, into the cracks of the ground in which we walk on, into nowhere. And im just about tired of putting my hand out when in need, and noone being there to grab it for me. Not that i need that, but it's nice every once and a while to have that person do so for you.
i got my gurls, that ive been thru DRAMA with since day 1, regardless of our ups and downs, they never fail me to bounce back. Then theres other friends that rather put me on the side because they think they are the only muhvafuq's goin thru whatever thay maybe goin through. New Flash: You're not. But like i said, I'm good off alot of you mofo's.
Its time to Realize we may become better people if we tried to help ourselves find happiness, rather than feeling sorry for ourselves.
Ungrateful people kill me.
And im know that this wont be the last time i encounter something like this.
All it takes is preparation.
And im good.
Hopefully ill get back to this blogging shit in full speed like i once was.
But im real focused on school and family.
If you dont understand then you just dont.
I wont ever force one to do so.
With a luke warm heart-- cuz she jus stopped giving a fuck.
=Milli Millz=
Friday, February 13, 2009
ALL SMiLES
It's been almost a week since i've been on here. Although i've explained countless times my moves and motivations--- forgive me. =)
It is 7:40 am and i am wideee awake. I got a 9 am class, but whatever thats light.
This week was alot to endure man. From budget meetings to Step practice to drama to just basic life shit we gota deal with on a day to day basis.
So far my Step Squad "Nexxus" routine for the Step Competition on Feb 28th is sick. I think we actually have a chance at placing this year man, like 4realize.
My radio show "Relevant Radio: Where Everything Matters" has been comin along smoothlyyy. Our Valentine Day special was funny as hell. Shout outs to my partner bigg booty Mo'e. Holla!
Also, Happy Birthday to my punk ass Relz, love you ugly.
Talkin about Valentines day real quick.
i have one =)
A Valentine that is.
Can't give yall all the detail but just know he's paying me a little visit here at MCLA.
This is the first time i've ever allowed anyone to come out here and see me. I'm just real funny when it comes to having company out here, i always tell people ill wait til i see them during a break or something.
Only this time-- it's different.
I kind of... Gave in. If you must.
lol.
This weekend is gona be a kee kee ya'll.
My eyes are def gettin heavy but i have to go finish cleanin the house for this "visitor".
ha!
Love yall.
Oh, btw. I may be M.i.A once again 4 the weekend. But once i get baq, ill have all the details. lmao.
Yall def deserve it mane!
With a smile & heart, a luke warm one.
=Milli Millz=
It is 7:40 am and i am wideee awake. I got a 9 am class, but whatever thats light.
This week was alot to endure man. From budget meetings to Step practice to drama to just basic life shit we gota deal with on a day to day basis.
So far my Step Squad "Nexxus" routine for the Step Competition on Feb 28th is sick. I think we actually have a chance at placing this year man, like 4realize.
My radio show "Relevant Radio: Where Everything Matters" has been comin along smoothlyyy. Our Valentine Day special was funny as hell. Shout outs to my partner bigg booty Mo'e. Holla!
Also, Happy Birthday to my punk ass Relz, love you ugly.
Talkin about Valentines day real quick.
i have one =)
A Valentine that is.
Can't give yall all the detail but just know he's paying me a little visit here at MCLA.
This is the first time i've ever allowed anyone to come out here and see me. I'm just real funny when it comes to having company out here, i always tell people ill wait til i see them during a break or something.
Only this time-- it's different.
I kind of... Gave in. If you must.
lol.
This weekend is gona be a kee kee ya'll.
My eyes are def gettin heavy but i have to go finish cleanin the house for this "visitor".
ha!
Love yall.
Oh, btw. I may be M.i.A once again 4 the weekend. But once i get baq, ill have all the details. lmao.
Yall def deserve it mane!
With a smile & heart, a luke warm one.
=Milli Millz=
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
REFOCUS
Time 2 refocus my microscope on the things that arent apparent to the naked eye.Theres alot of things hidden between the cracks in which we step on & in return-- A great Listener will make a great Leader with other substances that add to their potiental.
-Me.
Just how im feeling right now.
Studying for my Biology Test 2mor.
in Millz i trust.
& nothing else.
Word.
-Me.
Just how im feeling right now.
Studying for my Biology Test 2mor.
in Millz i trust.
& nothing else.
Word.
Monday, February 9, 2009
MY WEEKEND
Aye! Wuss goodieee fam-lay?! This weekend was coooool. But 1st and 4most let me just say that I'm not goin to talk about 'The Grammys" because of cousre, im pretty sure that everyone watched it, to keep it a hunnit, i didn't even watch the whole thing because i was too busy writing a last minute paper. I did see T.i & J.T though (sexy asses) but jeah!-- moving along.Oh! and i know yall heard about Chris Breezy washing Rihanna up. LMFAO. It's been said because she gave him herpes. I'm sayin though, i woulda wyle'd her up too. Shit. But that is neither here nor there so it is what it is. People act like entertainers aren't human, forgetting that before they are ANYTHING, they are HUMANS. Smh.
I just came from a meeting with my Magazine Writing & Editing professor. She proofread my story, which like i said before i'll be writing about fashion on campus and as she read my opening statement she begins to chuckle and says, "Jamila, you need to be let out your cage! because you are just an animal when it comes to writing. You have one of the most original voices in writing i've come across. And the potiental is great." Yes, that made my day. =)
Saturday me and my gurls went to a Pre-Valentines Day gala at a near by hotel, pics coming soon. but in the meantime between time, here are some pictures from Friday night at the Kappa House. They not in order but wudeva !
*Millzy was the name that they gave me*
I just came from a meeting with my Magazine Writing & Editing professor. She proofread my story, which like i said before i'll be writing about fashion on campus and as she read my opening statement she begins to chuckle and says, "Jamila, you need to be let out your cage! because you are just an animal when it comes to writing. You have one of the most original voices in writing i've come across. And the potiental is great." Yes, that made my day. =)
Saturday me and my gurls went to a Pre-Valentines Day gala at a near by hotel, pics coming soon. but in the meantime between time, here are some pictures from Friday night at the Kappa House. They not in order but wudeva !
*Millzy was the name that they gave me*
Sunday, February 8, 2009
TO NiCE--TO HUMBLE.
So i just got back from my school's Pre Valentine's Day Gala. It was cool-- me n da girls looked real nice as usual Pics up soon. =)
Theres alot of things on my mind right now. One of em being "RELATIONSHIPS"
Just sitting here in my room: No music, no t.v. Just this blog, my thoughts and i.
Just wrote this. This is the raw verison-- just fresh out my brain cells. lol.
Before you knock it tho-- try to understand it.
Nite =)
Theres alot of things on my mind right now. One of em being "RELATIONSHIPS"
Just sitting here in my room: No music, no t.v. Just this blog, my thoughts and i.
Just wrote this. This is the raw verison-- just fresh out my brain cells. lol.
Before you knock it tho-- try to understand it.
Nite =)
To humble-- too nice
They say im too humble.
Im too nice.
They ask me why i care so much.
Why i bother to think twice.
I cant help who i am.
Nor how i was born to be.
but i seen sincerity in your heart.
Some thing that nobody else had seen.
I let you step all over me, because i fear losing you as a friend.
But they say im dumb and too nice, im fallin 4 it again.
Depicting this picture with no picture just a blank-- empty page.
These words are my angers, these words are my hearts rage.
Which paints on that paper
Im too nice.
They ask me why i care so much.
Why i bother to think twice.
I cant help who i am.
Nor how i was born to be.
but i seen sincerity in your heart.
Some thing that nobody else had seen.
I let you step all over me, because i fear losing you as a friend.
But they say im dumb and too nice, im fallin 4 it again.
Depicting this picture with no picture just a blank-- empty page.
These words are my angers, these words are my hearts rage.
Which paints on that paper
and now that its complete
-- we can hang up the frame.
Humble and nice.
Get shot, or be sliced.
Damn, why cant i do anything right?
I sit in my room and plot.
On how to get rid of this soft spot.
that i have for you.
Say im through-- but in reality-- thats just real old news.
whose who?
Whats what?
Why do i care?
Who gives a fuck?
Hoping St Patricks day is tomor, cuz im in need of some luck.
im talkin a -s- a- p.
Not tryna turn this into a sad story, but damn, why me?
All this hurt, phoniness, things i cant even comprehend.
Im just to nice and too humble.
pssh... '
Humble and nice.
Get shot, or be sliced.
Damn, why cant i do anything right?
I sit in my room and plot.
On how to get rid of this soft spot.
that i have for you.
Say im through-- but in reality-- thats just real old news.
whose who?
Whats what?
Why do i care?
Who gives a fuck?
Hoping St Patricks day is tomor, cuz im in need of some luck.
im talkin a -s- a- p.
Not tryna turn this into a sad story, but damn, why me?
All this hurt, phoniness, things i cant even comprehend.
Im just to nice and too humble.
pssh... '
this shit has definitly got to end.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
MAiN EVENTT!
Aight-- so ya'll should already know. Im HELLA tight right now.
My boys Main Eventt also known as RingMasters just got voted off the show tonight.
They def did they thing and "America" aint really understand the art behind flexing but you know what?
BROOKLYNNN!
Went out with a bang.
FUQ WHAT THEY TALKIN ABOUT!
Main Eventt!
Nugget, Reggie, i love yall!
Holla yo.
Brooklynnnn, sayy WORD!
=Milli Millz=
My boys Main Eventt also known as RingMasters just got voted off the show tonight.
They def did they thing and "America" aint really understand the art behind flexing but you know what?
BROOKLYNNN!
Went out with a bang.
FUQ WHAT THEY TALKIN ABOUT!
Main Eventt!
Nugget, Reggie, i love yall!
Holla yo.
Brooklynnnn, sayy WORD!
=Milli Millz=
ON THE MOVE.
Yo yo yo Fam-Lay.
I know i been m.i.a for like what? 3 days. But for some good reasons:
1. School is getting real crazy.
2. I've been hitting the gym (yes, clap for me)
3. Anddddd, i have officially begun my RADIO SHOW ! with my homegurl Mo'e. It's called "Relevant Radio," every Wednesday from 2-3pm. We basically discuss every and anything goin on on campus. Our first show, because it is Black History Month (shout out to that!) we will open each show talking about 2 leaders that shaped society today, play some uplifting music (like Sam Cooke, James Brown etc) and invite people to call in or come to the studio and just talk shit. Lol. Our motto: "Relevant Radio; Where everything Matters" Simple & Understood. Holla !
=)
Next week, which is our 2nd show. We're going to have a Valentine Day special. Have some people call in and talk about their Worst or Best Valentine's Day, if they ever had one, and have a sexy ass PlayList! So, im real hype about that.
I also been telling myself that i need to step my intellect up. Instead of sitting in front of my PC and TV all day, i hit the library the day before yesterday and picked up this book by the name of: "Why White Kids Love Hip Hop--Wankstas, wiggers, and the new reality of race in america" by Bakari Kitwana. So far, this shit is DEEP. It uncovers alot of unknown history behind hip-hop, statistics, just mad shit. I wish i could take a picture of it, but my damn camera is broken. But i got yall =)
Tomorrow, i have to begin interviewing 4 people for this fashion paper I'm doing for my Magazine Writing & Editing class. I'll go more in depth once i have my thoughts together, but for sho, it finna be d o p e =)
Now, ABDC is on and i have this bum ass Spanish Test to study for.
i love yall.
OH! and shout outs to my 16 followers yo. Thats what the fuq is REALLY good. =*
Til then, the story never ends;
=Milli Millz=
I know i been m.i.a for like what? 3 days. But for some good reasons:
1. School is getting real crazy.
2. I've been hitting the gym (yes, clap for me)
3. Anddddd, i have officially begun my RADIO SHOW ! with my homegurl Mo'e. It's called "Relevant Radio," every Wednesday from 2-3pm. We basically discuss every and anything goin on on campus. Our first show, because it is Black History Month (shout out to that!) we will open each show talking about 2 leaders that shaped society today, play some uplifting music (like Sam Cooke, James Brown etc) and invite people to call in or come to the studio and just talk shit. Lol. Our motto: "Relevant Radio; Where everything Matters" Simple & Understood. Holla !
=)
Next week, which is our 2nd show. We're going to have a Valentine Day special. Have some people call in and talk about their Worst or Best Valentine's Day, if they ever had one, and have a sexy ass PlayList! So, im real hype about that.
I also been telling myself that i need to step my intellect up. Instead of sitting in front of my PC and TV all day, i hit the library the day before yesterday and picked up this book by the name of: "Why White Kids Love Hip Hop--Wankstas, wiggers, and the new reality of race in america" by Bakari Kitwana. So far, this shit is DEEP. It uncovers alot of unknown history behind hip-hop, statistics, just mad shit. I wish i could take a picture of it, but my damn camera is broken. But i got yall =)
Tomorrow, i have to begin interviewing 4 people for this fashion paper I'm doing for my Magazine Writing & Editing class. I'll go more in depth once i have my thoughts together, but for sho, it finna be d o p e =)
Now, ABDC is on and i have this bum ass Spanish Test to study for.
i love yall.
OH! and shout outs to my 16 followers yo. Thats what the fuq is REALLY good. =*
Til then, the story never ends;
=Milli Millz=
Monday, February 2, 2009
GROUNDHOG'S DAY
According to the hommie, the GroundHog, he saw his shadow--winter shall last for about 6 more weeks. Talk about wdf.
That must be a prediction for NY because out here in Mass, we still get snow in May. I remember when i woke up, it had to be like mid-April and it was dead ass flurries outside. I mean-- i love the winter, ima winter baby. But not for so long, im ready for the Spring time baybee! Get at me asappp. I'm ready to pull out the light cardigans, Low Keds, Sb'z, all that flyy shit-- with some shades on. I think we all feel the same way, right?
Question: Why they putting a mic by it's mouth like he sayin something? Smh.... The stupid shit people do yo.
Word to the forecast,
=Milli Millz=
Sunday, February 1, 2009
QUOTE OF THE DAY #2:
"CHAMPiONS ARE MADE FROM SOMETHiNG.
THEY HAVE DEEP iNSIDE THEM, A DESiRE, A DREAM, A ViSiON.
THEY HAVE TO HAVE LAST-MiNUTE STAMiNA,
THEY HAVE TO BE A LiTTLE FASTER,
THEY HAVE TO HAVE THE SKiLL AND THE WiLL.
BUT THE WiLL MUST BE STRONGER THAN THE SKiLL."
-MUHAMMAD ALi.
AFTER MiDNiTE #2
So it's 3am, and im chillin with Jameeky, and Mal watching "Sober House", these muhvafucka's on this show are banoodles bee. Whatever happened to cherishng your life?
Moving on;
All my other friends are either sleep or not doing shit. Jenny's boyfriend, Gary, just popped up here at school and the expression on her face was retarded. He had called me around 8 saying that he wanted to come and now he's here and she's like madd happy =) Dass wussap. Times like this make me wish i had a nice boyfriend like that. Somebody that would drive 5 whole ass hours to M.A. to surprise me and make my day. Or at least someone on this campus, SOMETHING! Shit....
But, she just locked me out my room and told me i cant come back til around 7.... A.M. So ya'll already know what that meannnnssss!! oowww!! Get it Roomie! =* But, sadly for me, i have nowhere to go, so i guess i'll be sleep on the couch tonight. Diggy?=/
Today my step squad (Nexxus) performed at both the Women's and Men's game. The girls went in and won against Worcester State College, while the boys, who played they asses off, lost by 5 after going into double O.T. Talk about tight. psssh =/ Shout outs to them though for doing they thing on the court. Ya tu sabe.
oohh jeahh!! and let me not forget.. i def hit the gym today with my girls Bori, Mamma, and Jenny. =D after brunch.. awww chyeaaaaa.
Quite proud of myself i shall say.
I'm bored though.
Guess I'ma take my simple ass to sleep.
On the couch that is....
Sucky Saturday huh.
Word.........
Millzy*
Friday, January 30, 2009
OH & BY THE WAY...JAN 31ST 1993!
Happy 16th Birthday to my baby brother Kedar Addon Errol Hunter. (Jeah, thats him in da yellow and white...)
You getting big boy, and you know you my Best friend.
You yellow buscuit in the face ass nucca!
Just know that i am very proud of you. Doing your thing in Football, stay focused, don't let these little young birds get to you son! lol.
Only reason why i pick arguments with you over AIM is because i miss yo ugly ass.
You know, besides the other brothers you're all i have.
It's just us two in that lonely house together, and even though you get me tight w. ya annoying ass ways.
I mean like--- that's what little brothers do right?
i lovee youuu KeyKey.
Ya big sister, who you got ya swag from:
La-Li-Lah, as you would call me.
<3
JUST RAMBLiNG....
I just got done doing some extreme "Crunch" Work out with my girl Domi. Crunches, sit-ups, all types of crazy shit i normally don't do. But like i told you guys, im on my work out shit. So i went to the gym from 330-5 today then had a 2nd workout in my living room. As of right now-- Ha-- my body is Numb (well, of cousre, except my fingers. =]) Now, im just laying on the couch with Jenny watching, "Clean House," where basically a group of people go to some other people house and help them clean their dirty ass houses, like they not a bunch of grown ass people. Smh. In this episode, there's 4 grown ass women and their crib looks like what the fuck... Do ya'll remember Laura from 'Family Matters"? Well, she's one of the host on this show and she looks like straight Basura (garbage en espanol) =/ Sadly. She was way cuter back then. I always thought she was mad pretty. I guess some people grow out out their cuteness. WHOMP.
So Valentine's day is approaching. Makes me ponderrrrrr, this one i think will be a Valentine-less year. Last year's was real nice but, i never had a BOMB ASS Valentine day. Honestly speaking. I can be real romantic when i wana, but things never last that long 4 me to even reach that level w. a person. My boy just asked me to be his Valentine though, lol. So we gona be Online Valentines, sending Post cards and shit. Shout outs to you D. Ferg! Lmao.
I Should have a Valentine's Day Playlist for yall to get ya'll groove on too ;). And trust me when i say, yall wont be disappointed. My music taste is SERIOUS. So CHILL SON!
Tell me what yall got planned for V-day doe. and remember:
NO GLOVE! NO LOVE BiSHS!!
Love yall!
*Ayo Millzy! ooww
So Valentine's day is approaching. Makes me ponderrrrrr, this one i think will be a Valentine-less year. Last year's was real nice but, i never had a BOMB ASS Valentine day. Honestly speaking. I can be real romantic when i wana, but things never last that long 4 me to even reach that level w. a person. My boy just asked me to be his Valentine though, lol. So we gona be Online Valentines, sending Post cards and shit. Shout outs to you D. Ferg! Lmao.
I Should have a Valentine's Day Playlist for yall to get ya'll groove on too ;). And trust me when i say, yall wont be disappointed. My music taste is SERIOUS. So CHILL SON!
Tell me what yall got planned for V-day doe. and remember:
NO GLOVE! NO LOVE BiSHS!!
Love yall!
*Ayo Millzy! ooww
QUOTE OF THE DAY:
" KEEP YOUR HEAD TO THE SKY & YOUR FEET TO THE GROUND."
as said by, =Mill Millz= herself.
as said by, =Mill Millz= herself.
Never let up nor down. Just do yo thang.
btw.
Good morningggg =)
btw.
Good morningggg =)
Word.
=Millzy.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
THEY MADE iT!
RiNGMASTERS MADE iT YALL.
GiVE iT UP!!!!
ALTHOUGH i THOUGHT THAT PERFORMANCE WAS ODEE POPPiN.
i FEEL LiKE THE ViEWERS WONT FULLY UNDERSTAND THAT.
iF THEY DiD THAT SHiT ON FLEX THOUGH.
PSSHHHH!
YOU ALREADY KNOW!!
BROOKLYNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!
BACK TO HOMWORK NOW =)
WORD TO MY MUHVALAND.
GiVE iT UP!!!!
ALTHOUGH i THOUGHT THAT PERFORMANCE WAS ODEE POPPiN.
i FEEL LiKE THE ViEWERS WONT FULLY UNDERSTAND THAT.
iF THEY DiD THAT SHiT ON FLEX THOUGH.
PSSHHHH!
YOU ALREADY KNOW!!
BROOKLYNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!
BACK TO HOMWORK NOW =)
WORD TO MY MUHVALAND.
MAD SHiT... LOL
Aight so alot of shit happened today. Here's for a little recap.
1.This morning about 2 A.M. My homegirl that i grew up with in East New York, found me on FACEBOOK. I have not seen this girl in 6 years. We lost contact after i moved to Queens and we basically went our separate ways. Hopefully this summer we can chill and catch up on each others lives. I love you Facebook!!! =)
2. I had one class today--Broadcast Delievery. Came back to my room and slept til 530. Hit the gymmm like i said i would (Ha! Check me out baby!) Now my stomach, arms, and thighs are killing me.
3. We had a Unity Meeting today. Basically there had been a beef between the upper classmen (My class) and the freshmen. You know how in the midst of things words get twisted, dirty looks exchanged, and other small dumb shit. Well, those things almost turned into someone getting their ass whopped. But we are in College, this is not High School. And with that said. At this meeting things were put out on the table and hopefully, things will be better on campus.
4. Now im back in my room, and Jenny (the roommate) is in here going bananas over the kee kee going down in Grey's Anatomy. I don't watch this shit, so im lost. lol.
5. I woke up with my brothers on my mind. Things will get better with time =).
6. Ima start having a "quote of the day" section, something to start off all of our day.
"WE REMAiN A YOUNG NATiON, BUT iN THE WORDS OF SCRiPTURE, THE TiME HAS COME TO SET ASiDE CHiLDiSH THiNGS."
-Our President.
Now... Back to America's Best Dance Crew. Lets see if RingMasters get it together. They bottom two right now, and Quest Crew Killed it. Hands down.
Word ma.
=Milli Millz=
1.This morning about 2 A.M. My homegirl that i grew up with in East New York, found me on FACEBOOK. I have not seen this girl in 6 years. We lost contact after i moved to Queens and we basically went our separate ways. Hopefully this summer we can chill and catch up on each others lives. I love you Facebook!!! =)
2. I had one class today--Broadcast Delievery. Came back to my room and slept til 530. Hit the gymmm like i said i would (Ha! Check me out baby!) Now my stomach, arms, and thighs are killing me.
3. We had a Unity Meeting today. Basically there had been a beef between the upper classmen (My class) and the freshmen. You know how in the midst of things words get twisted, dirty looks exchanged, and other small dumb shit. Well, those things almost turned into someone getting their ass whopped. But we are in College, this is not High School. And with that said. At this meeting things were put out on the table and hopefully, things will be better on campus.
4. Now im back in my room, and Jenny (the roommate) is in here going bananas over the kee kee going down in Grey's Anatomy. I don't watch this shit, so im lost. lol.
5. I woke up with my brothers on my mind. Things will get better with time =).
6. Ima start having a "quote of the day" section, something to start off all of our day.
"WE REMAiN A YOUNG NATiON, BUT iN THE WORDS OF SCRiPTURE, THE TiME HAS COME TO SET ASiDE CHiLDiSH THiNGS."
-Our President.
Now... Back to America's Best Dance Crew. Lets see if RingMasters get it together. They bottom two right now, and Quest Crew Killed it. Hands down.
Word ma.
=Milli Millz=
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
REBUiLD WHAT'S BEEN DESTROYED.
I was trying to get some homework done, but somethings been bothering me so leme get it off my chest.
I am the oldest and only girl out of 6 boys. Joel--Kedar--Jayvon--Jahday--Jarell--Kiaje= those are my little brothers.
Now; for me to tell my story word for word will take alot of time, alot of time i feel like i do not have because in the time spent explaining my story to you i can be actually trying to fix this problem. Moving on though, long story short:
Joel, Kedar, Jayvon, Jahday and I all grew up together. In the midst of us getting older, things began to happen. Parent seperations, home divisions, siblings comptetions. We were once oh so close, i mean close. I mean, there was no such thing as Joel without Jamila, Jamila without Jayvon, etc. But things began to happen in ways i can't seem to explain verbally, rather i think my words can vividly show you how i feel right now.
Today, is my baby brother Jayvon 14th birthday. Because of all the bullshit i rather not go to in depth with, i have not seen my baby brother for 2 years. How do i feel? Being the older sister? Like total shit. All those times i went home for break, i kept telling myself: "Oh, im going to see Jayvon today. Oh, im going to see Jahday today." But yet, i always found someway to go against my word and put others before them. What a mistake. Today was the first time i've spoken to my baby brother Jayvon in almost two years. His voice has changed and so has his frame of mind-- he does not give a fuck anymore. And i dont blame him. But listen to this-- my baby brother Jahday has not seen his older brother (Jayvon) for quite a while now. And when i went to see him last month, this 11 year old expressed to me, that his life was nothing but a dream, and when he woke up he wished that things can go back to how they were. Back in the day when we played Man Hunt, watched Beavis & Butthead, back to the day when grandma use to yell for her remote. He hates the fact that him and his older brother no longer speak because of a family feud that people can't seem to get a grip on and move on.
This shit hurts me. I feel like i have failed as a sister and guardian to my baby bro's yo. How can i be absent to the small one's? When i was all they knew as the older person who was suppose to care for them. We grew apart in the worse way and it hurts.
Everyone is so caught up in doing their own thing that they never stopped to see the bigger picture. The bigger picture being the disappearance of love between brothers and sisters. mothers and father, aunts and uncles. I miss my family. I mean-- i never had a big family to begin with. So the one that i have are now slowly fading. And today i began my quest to try and fix what little bit we have left. Because we are all we got. It's crazy how we all went from something to nothing man. Like, how can I let this happen? I can't hold the excuse of me being busy with school get in the way of still keeping contact with my brothers, cousins, etc. It's been a while since i cried this hard today. Just hearing Jayvon's voice, and to not even recognize my own baby brothers voice..... like what the fuck? And for him to say JAM? IS THAT YOU? and for us to be such strangers to one another?
Na, this is not how it use to be, and it's not the way it's suppose to be.
I am going to try my BEST to fix this. I Promise You.
Don't mistake this post as a sad story yo... Take this as a lesson. Don't forget the important things your life. I would go on, but the pains in my stomach and chest right now are unbearable.
i love my family.
there's nothing nor noone that can replace them.
My little brothers are all grown up.
Hopefully we can rebuild what has been destroyed.
On a journey;
=Milli Millz=
I am the oldest and only girl out of 6 boys. Joel--Kedar--Jayvon--Jahday--Jarell--Kiaje= those are my little brothers.
Now; for me to tell my story word for word will take alot of time, alot of time i feel like i do not have because in the time spent explaining my story to you i can be actually trying to fix this problem. Moving on though, long story short:
Joel, Kedar, Jayvon, Jahday and I all grew up together. In the midst of us getting older, things began to happen. Parent seperations, home divisions, siblings comptetions. We were once oh so close, i mean close. I mean, there was no such thing as Joel without Jamila, Jamila without Jayvon, etc. But things began to happen in ways i can't seem to explain verbally, rather i think my words can vividly show you how i feel right now.
Today, is my baby brother Jayvon 14th birthday. Because of all the bullshit i rather not go to in depth with, i have not seen my baby brother for 2 years. How do i feel? Being the older sister? Like total shit. All those times i went home for break, i kept telling myself: "Oh, im going to see Jayvon today. Oh, im going to see Jahday today." But yet, i always found someway to go against my word and put others before them. What a mistake. Today was the first time i've spoken to my baby brother Jayvon in almost two years. His voice has changed and so has his frame of mind-- he does not give a fuck anymore. And i dont blame him. But listen to this-- my baby brother Jahday has not seen his older brother (Jayvon) for quite a while now. And when i went to see him last month, this 11 year old expressed to me, that his life was nothing but a dream, and when he woke up he wished that things can go back to how they were. Back in the day when we played Man Hunt, watched Beavis & Butthead, back to the day when grandma use to yell for her remote. He hates the fact that him and his older brother no longer speak because of a family feud that people can't seem to get a grip on and move on.
This shit hurts me. I feel like i have failed as a sister and guardian to my baby bro's yo. How can i be absent to the small one's? When i was all they knew as the older person who was suppose to care for them. We grew apart in the worse way and it hurts.
Everyone is so caught up in doing their own thing that they never stopped to see the bigger picture. The bigger picture being the disappearance of love between brothers and sisters. mothers and father, aunts and uncles. I miss my family. I mean-- i never had a big family to begin with. So the one that i have are now slowly fading. And today i began my quest to try and fix what little bit we have left. Because we are all we got. It's crazy how we all went from something to nothing man. Like, how can I let this happen? I can't hold the excuse of me being busy with school get in the way of still keeping contact with my brothers, cousins, etc. It's been a while since i cried this hard today. Just hearing Jayvon's voice, and to not even recognize my own baby brothers voice..... like what the fuck? And for him to say JAM? IS THAT YOU? and for us to be such strangers to one another?
Na, this is not how it use to be, and it's not the way it's suppose to be.
I am going to try my BEST to fix this. I Promise You.
Don't mistake this post as a sad story yo... Take this as a lesson. Don't forget the important things your life. I would go on, but the pains in my stomach and chest right now are unbearable.
i love my family.
there's nothing nor noone that can replace them.
My little brothers are all grown up.
Hopefully we can rebuild what has been destroyed.
On a journey;
=Milli Millz=
8:58AM-- NO SCHOOL !
So i just woke up to check if classes were still happening and their not!
This is the email that made my day:
"MCLA is closed today, Wednesday, January 28th, due to the snow storm. All day and evening classes are cancelled."
There's about 10-16 inches of snow out and the Campus is locked down.
So you know what that meansssssssssssssssss.
BACK TO SLEEP i go! =D
ooowwwww!!
But too everyone that had to get up and attend work and/or school.
Be safe please.
Thanks.
P.S. Happy 14th Birthday to my baby brother Jayvon Chance Creswell.
I know i haven't been the best big sister in the world, but I'm working on it. Once i hit NY again i got you.
I love you JayJay <3
=Milli Millz=
This is the email that made my day:
"MCLA is closed today, Wednesday, January 28th, due to the snow storm. All day and evening classes are cancelled."
There's about 10-16 inches of snow out and the Campus is locked down.
So you know what that meansssssssssssssssss.
BACK TO SLEEP i go! =D
ooowwwww!!
But too everyone that had to get up and attend work and/or school.
Be safe please.
Thanks.
P.S. Happy 14th Birthday to my baby brother Jayvon Chance Creswell.
I know i haven't been the best big sister in the world, but I'm working on it. Once i hit NY again i got you.
I love you JayJay <3
=Milli Millz=
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
TiL THE DEATH PART 2
Something my ace Banga wrote, and i just applied it to myself and it goes hand in hand w. my last post: ENJOY! =)
Ms. Journalism/Broadcasting Student:
Ms. Swag on point make you twitch:
Ms. Neva had been Less than a true Boss Chiq:
Ms. Never been cocky cuz Im way 2 cool:
Ms. “Can You stop For a Minute?” on Her Way 2 School:
Ms. Respected by Many:
Ms. Disrespect is Rare:
Ms. “Speak up Bird I Cant Hear You From Up Here!!”:
Ms. Neva Been A Hoe:
Ms. Neva Been a Groupie:
Ms. Get Her Nails but will Still Smack off Kufi’s:
Ms. Loyal to Her Friends:
Ms. if she had one she'll be Loyal to her Man:
Ms. Get Out of My Life If You Cant Understand:
Ms. Nucca Step off if You aint tryna Step up:
Ms. Ma You Aint doin ish so Shut the EFF up:
Ms. 1 oF a Kind:
Ms. Stay on Her Grind:
Ms: Try 2 Find some1 Else like Me:
Ms. This:
Ms. That:
Ms. Milli Millz.
Holla back.
Ms. Journalism/Broadcasting Student:
Ms. Swag on point make you twitch:
Ms. Neva had been Less than a true Boss Chiq:
Ms. Never been cocky cuz Im way 2 cool:
Ms. “Can You stop For a Minute?” on Her Way 2 School:
Ms. Respected by Many:
Ms. Disrespect is Rare:
Ms. “Speak up Bird I Cant Hear You From Up Here!!”:
Ms. Neva Been A Hoe:
Ms. Neva Been a Groupie:
Ms. Get Her Nails but will Still Smack off Kufi’s:
Ms. Loyal to Her Friends:
Ms. if she had one she'll be Loyal to her Man:
Ms. Get Out of My Life If You Cant Understand:
Ms. Nucca Step off if You aint tryna Step up:
Ms. Ma You Aint doin ish so Shut the EFF up:
Ms. 1 oF a Kind:
Ms. Stay on Her Grind:
Ms: Try 2 Find some1 Else like Me:
Ms. This:
Ms. That:
Ms. Milli Millz.
Holla back.
TiL THE DEATH... YA HERD?!
"thesarahnoelle (9:49:21 PM): im sarah noelle
thesarahnoelle (9:49:23 PM): til the death of it."
That's what Sarah said to me. And coming from her. That's a big deal. She's always been the person constantly talking about Change. Change within herself, change within society, just change. Too me, change is good (like the shit Obama tryna do)--but depending on the situtaion but i mean, dont try to fix what isn't broken.
Alot of people-- the one's i know-- try to change what they don't like about themselves because maybe they feel like socially their not what it is. But i'm here to tell you: Fuck what society got to say. Do You. If you try forever to fit in, you wont... EVER. We were born to be ourselves, and as we grow older life becomes too busy to even worry about who said what-- who did who--who is who and why. When Sarah said that, i couldn't help but smile because she is HER, til the death.
And that's how everyone should be. Appreciate who you are. Ya moms aint carrying you for all those months for you to come out and change yaself up. What kind of ungrateful shit you on?!
I know as for me-- i've never been so sure of myself.
I'm Jamila S. Creswell til the death.
holla.
=Milli Millz=
thesarahnoelle (9:49:23 PM): til the death of it."
That's what Sarah said to me. And coming from her. That's a big deal. She's always been the person constantly talking about Change. Change within herself, change within society, just change. Too me, change is good (like the shit Obama tryna do)--but depending on the situtaion but i mean, dont try to fix what isn't broken.
Alot of people-- the one's i know-- try to change what they don't like about themselves because maybe they feel like socially their not what it is. But i'm here to tell you: Fuck what society got to say. Do You. If you try forever to fit in, you wont... EVER. We were born to be ourselves, and as we grow older life becomes too busy to even worry about who said what-- who did who--who is who and why. When Sarah said that, i couldn't help but smile because she is HER, til the death.
And that's how everyone should be. Appreciate who you are. Ya moms aint carrying you for all those months for you to come out and change yaself up. What kind of ungrateful shit you on?!
I know as for me-- i've never been so sure of myself.
I'm Jamila S. Creswell til the death.
holla.
=Milli Millz=
Monday, January 26, 2009
DEDiCATiON WHERE?
See. I'm already starting my bullshit. Its been a day or two since i last posted. Let me tell yall a lil something about myself.
I began this blog with the hopes of actually becoming dedicated to a craft. I can honestly put myself on blast and say that I am Queen Procrastinator. For 19 years of my life, i've been real good at beginning things then mid-way stopping. Either because 1-i just got lazy 2-got bored 3-no longer found joy in it. I'm not an athlete although I've been told several times throughout my life:"Jamila, You're a good height. Put that shit to use. Go play some ball." Now, just because i have dude tendencies does not mean that i want to dribble a ball, and just because i have the height for it doesn't mean that it's meant for me to do so (im average 5'7 btw).
What i do is WRITE. That's ME. I have a thing for bringing my words to life and getting my thoughts out to the world as i see it. For these past days, i wont front, i've been hella busy. I mean look at me! I am a sophomore in college tryna do my 1,2. So what i'm saying is Don't knock me... Just have patience. From here on out, i shall be on my Bloggington game. It's just that i'll come to my room after a long day of Step practice, meetings, homework, gym work outs (which i will be hitting everyday as a promise to myself) and then to blog... my fingers won't let me, although i know that this blog is to serve me, a purpose. And i'm going to use this shit to my fullest fucking potential.
I just thought i put you guys on to how i be sometimes. And im grateful for all 10 of my viewers. Shit we all gotta start from somewhere right?
Moving on!
This past weekend was a BLAST. Saturday by far has to be one of the funniest days i've had ina while and def will go up in my top 10.
So boom, i played a game of "Taboo" for 4 HOURS. Yes-- from midnight to 4 in the morning, at my boys Just and Jamal cribb. That game is maddddd funny. For example; my boy Jameek and girl Tay are on teams. The word was BBQ SAUCE. So, Tay had to describe this to him without saying the actual word. So Jameek's trying mad hard to come up with the answer and this is how Tay's describing it (im cracking up just thinking about it) She goes: "IT'S CREAMY! IT'S ALL OVER YOUR FACE! IT'S MMMMMM." All while making crazy facial expressions.
Now-- somebody please tell me what does creamy and mmmm have anything to do with bbq sauce? Lmaoo. Yo, everybody in the house shouted: "CUM?! A NUT?! What da fuck Tay?!" lmao.
Sad part is-- he never got it! WHOMP!
Then, just at the last round of the game, somebody started playing music and that totally threw everyone off. Next thing i know, the lights went off, the black light came on and it turned into a lil lounge. Out of nowhere-- Tasha is in the kitchen-- cooking some Porkchops, mac and cheese, and corn, while my boy Just dead ass made some hot dogs on the grill. Someone pulled out a bottle of Disarronno and it was Game over. Feeling nice plus a full course meal? At 4 A.M? The night ended with me falling asleep on the couch and waking up... looking at the clock and realizing that it was damn 7 AM! Me and my girls ran out that house, I went into my home, knocked everything that was on my bed OFF, and drooled my life away. Life gets No Better. =)
Man oh man. Good times Good times. I appreciate them for real. loll -- i am rolling right now.
This weekend, i think we're going to play Pictionary or Twister-- this shall be interesting.
Today though-- I had 4 classes. Took a banging ass nap from 130-4. Hit the gym from 5-615. Had some dinner after that then went to Step practice from 745-9. Then another meeting. See what i mean ? None the less though, thats no excuse. I love yall.
Now its going on 11 and its time for me to go wash my yellow ass. Smelling like hot sauce and pickle juice. ahaha -- I'm mad dumb, don't mind me =)
Tomorrow's another day yo.
i'm working on that thing called "Dedication."
<3
Word.
*Millzy*
I began this blog with the hopes of actually becoming dedicated to a craft. I can honestly put myself on blast and say that I am Queen Procrastinator. For 19 years of my life, i've been real good at beginning things then mid-way stopping. Either because 1-i just got lazy 2-got bored 3-no longer found joy in it. I'm not an athlete although I've been told several times throughout my life:"Jamila, You're a good height. Put that shit to use. Go play some ball." Now, just because i have dude tendencies does not mean that i want to dribble a ball, and just because i have the height for it doesn't mean that it's meant for me to do so (im average 5'7 btw).
What i do is WRITE. That's ME. I have a thing for bringing my words to life and getting my thoughts out to the world as i see it. For these past days, i wont front, i've been hella busy. I mean look at me! I am a sophomore in college tryna do my 1,2. So what i'm saying is Don't knock me... Just have patience. From here on out, i shall be on my Bloggington game. It's just that i'll come to my room after a long day of Step practice, meetings, homework, gym work outs (which i will be hitting everyday as a promise to myself) and then to blog... my fingers won't let me, although i know that this blog is to serve me, a purpose. And i'm going to use this shit to my fullest fucking potential.
I just thought i put you guys on to how i be sometimes. And im grateful for all 10 of my viewers. Shit we all gotta start from somewhere right?
Moving on!
This past weekend was a BLAST. Saturday by far has to be one of the funniest days i've had ina while and def will go up in my top 10.
So boom, i played a game of "Taboo" for 4 HOURS. Yes-- from midnight to 4 in the morning, at my boys Just and Jamal cribb. That game is maddddd funny. For example; my boy Jameek and girl Tay are on teams. The word was BBQ SAUCE. So, Tay had to describe this to him without saying the actual word. So Jameek's trying mad hard to come up with the answer and this is how Tay's describing it (im cracking up just thinking about it) She goes: "IT'S CREAMY! IT'S ALL OVER YOUR FACE! IT'S MMMMMM." All while making crazy facial expressions.
Now-- somebody please tell me what does creamy and mmmm have anything to do with bbq sauce? Lmaoo. Yo, everybody in the house shouted: "CUM?! A NUT?! What da fuck Tay?!" lmao.
Sad part is-- he never got it! WHOMP!
Then, just at the last round of the game, somebody started playing music and that totally threw everyone off. Next thing i know, the lights went off, the black light came on and it turned into a lil lounge. Out of nowhere-- Tasha is in the kitchen-- cooking some Porkchops, mac and cheese, and corn, while my boy Just dead ass made some hot dogs on the grill. Someone pulled out a bottle of Disarronno and it was Game over. Feeling nice plus a full course meal? At 4 A.M? The night ended with me falling asleep on the couch and waking up... looking at the clock and realizing that it was damn 7 AM! Me and my girls ran out that house, I went into my home, knocked everything that was on my bed OFF, and drooled my life away. Life gets No Better. =)
Man oh man. Good times Good times. I appreciate them for real. loll -- i am rolling right now.
This weekend, i think we're going to play Pictionary or Twister-- this shall be interesting.
Today though-- I had 4 classes. Took a banging ass nap from 130-4. Hit the gym from 5-615. Had some dinner after that then went to Step practice from 745-9. Then another meeting. See what i mean ? None the less though, thats no excuse. I love yall.
Now its going on 11 and its time for me to go wash my yellow ass. Smelling like hot sauce and pickle juice. ahaha -- I'm mad dumb, don't mind me =)
Tomorrow's another day yo.
i'm working on that thing called "Dedication."
<3
Word.
*Millzy*
Saturday, January 24, 2009
FRiDAY NiGHT/SATURDAY AFTERNOON
My fault for not posting yesterday ya'll.
It was Friday and you already know Friday = Party. Plus i was hella busy during the day. So i def apologize.
Me and my girls went to this "80's party" in the Pines Sorority House.
Shit was aight, only thing that sucks about this school parties is that they end before freaking 12.
Blah... Whatever.
We party'd and bullshit.. Had a lil too much to drink (as usual), went back to Tasha house, danced around, played some card game. Then, we went to my boys Justin & Jamal house-- chilled over there for a good minute then paid some of the basketball players-- Lopes, Marv, Harris and Gesse-- a visit.
Had a mini sex talk, which was hilarious as shit.
"Like seriously ladies, what do you do with a 13 inch dick?!"
lmao.
i love my hommies.
Oh and can't forget the quote of the night... " it's not that i dont like black girls, its just that i feel like my dick is too short-- isn't big enough for yall."
Thats a wholeeeee other story! ahaha. I got ya'll tho. Next post-- next post. =)
Afterward though, i was so beat, i went to my house. Came to my empty ass dorm room, and realized i can't stand to sleep in that room by myself. Reasons being for one-- im scared of the dark and it just seems mad lonely down here. My roommate needs to hurry back!
So instead, i got my poka-dot comforter, my teddy bear Daniel and headed back over to Tash house, where i slept in her bed with her (yes, 6 years in the making, so i aint gota say No homo!) lol.
I'll put pics up of last night once i get them.
Last night was the first time in a very long time, me and all of my girls actually went out together. And i love the feeling of it.
This weekend we fina just do it again! Ya diggy?!
Moving on-- I just got back from an interview with my school newspaper "The Beacon".
They want to do a story on my Step Squad Nexxus. So me being the Vice President and my girl Mo'e the President of the team, -- went in some sweats and hoodies, looking mad thuggish. Lol. I wonder what the reporter was thinking when he saw us. In any case though, we got our point across. And Nexxus is the shit, i can't wait for competition in Feb. We got some flyy shit. But i'll speak on that later too!
At 4 i'll be at the boys bball game.
Then after, its whatever.
My mind is everywhere right now, if you cant tell by this post.
But just hang w. me for a sec-- i'll get back in no time.
Word to me*
=Milli Millz=
It was Friday and you already know Friday = Party. Plus i was hella busy during the day. So i def apologize.
Me and my girls went to this "80's party" in the Pines Sorority House.
Shit was aight, only thing that sucks about this school parties is that they end before freaking 12.
Blah... Whatever.
We party'd and bullshit.. Had a lil too much to drink (as usual), went back to Tasha house, danced around, played some card game. Then, we went to my boys Justin & Jamal house-- chilled over there for a good minute then paid some of the basketball players-- Lopes, Marv, Harris and Gesse-- a visit.
Had a mini sex talk, which was hilarious as shit.
"Like seriously ladies, what do you do with a 13 inch dick?!"
lmao.
i love my hommies.
Oh and can't forget the quote of the night... " it's not that i dont like black girls, its just that i feel like my dick is too short-- isn't big enough for yall."
Thats a wholeeeee other story! ahaha. I got ya'll tho. Next post-- next post. =)
Afterward though, i was so beat, i went to my house. Came to my empty ass dorm room, and realized i can't stand to sleep in that room by myself. Reasons being for one-- im scared of the dark and it just seems mad lonely down here. My roommate needs to hurry back!
So instead, i got my poka-dot comforter, my teddy bear Daniel and headed back over to Tash house, where i slept in her bed with her (yes, 6 years in the making, so i aint gota say No homo!) lol.
I'll put pics up of last night once i get them.
Last night was the first time in a very long time, me and all of my girls actually went out together. And i love the feeling of it.
This weekend we fina just do it again! Ya diggy?!
Moving on-- I just got back from an interview with my school newspaper "The Beacon".
They want to do a story on my Step Squad Nexxus. So me being the Vice President and my girl Mo'e the President of the team, -- went in some sweats and hoodies, looking mad thuggish. Lol. I wonder what the reporter was thinking when he saw us. In any case though, we got our point across. And Nexxus is the shit, i can't wait for competition in Feb. We got some flyy shit. But i'll speak on that later too!
At 4 i'll be at the boys bball game.
Then after, its whatever.
My mind is everywhere right now, if you cant tell by this post.
But just hang w. me for a sec-- i'll get back in no time.
Word to me*
=Milli Millz=
Thursday, January 22, 2009
AFTER MiDNiGHT
So i had to come back real quick.
It is "Thirsty Thursday" (Basically everyone drinking, getting twisted) on my campus today and there's like MAD people running around acting a damn fool.
I'm chilling in my living room.
Domi (My girl from Boston) is cleaning up.
and here come's my two homeboys: Michael & Ashton.
This nucca Michael is sitting here eating a White Castle sandwich-- fresh out the microwave and a damn Chocolate Chip Cookie sandwich!!!!
Ashton is dead ass making FRIED HOT DOGS!
and Jenny is making a fucking Cheese and Turkey OMLET!!
Now ask me why i hate these people called my friends!!
Lmfaooo!
And I'm chatting with my son Ant, and he goes :
Ant (12:50:50 AM): how far away is ya school again from ova here?
MiLLZ (12:50:58 AM): 4.5. hourss
Ant(12:51:15 AM): ooo ok kool
Ant(12:51:20 AM): wus da transportation
Ant(12:51:27 AM): did i ask u that already?
MiLLZ (12:52:43 AM): LOL
MiLLZ (12:52:44 AM): YES
MiLLZ (12:52:45 AM): GILL
MiLLZ (12:52:52 AM): Port authority
MiLLZ (12:52:56 AM): to Williams town
Ant (12:52:59 AM): lmfaooo
Ant (12:53:11 AM): WILLIAMS town fuck yall got sherriffs and shyt lol
Shaking my head.
This is what my LIFE consist of: AFTER Midnight =P
=Millzy.
It is "Thirsty Thursday" (Basically everyone drinking, getting twisted) on my campus today and there's like MAD people running around acting a damn fool.
I'm chilling in my living room.
Domi (My girl from Boston) is cleaning up.
and here come's my two homeboys: Michael & Ashton.
This nucca Michael is sitting here eating a White Castle sandwich-- fresh out the microwave and a damn Chocolate Chip Cookie sandwich!!!!
Ashton is dead ass making FRIED HOT DOGS!
and Jenny is making a fucking Cheese and Turkey OMLET!!
Now ask me why i hate these people called my friends!!
Lmfaooo!
And I'm chatting with my son Ant, and he goes :
Ant (12:50:50 AM): how far away is ya school again from ova here?
MiLLZ (12:50:58 AM): 4.5. hourss
Ant(12:51:15 AM): ooo ok kool
Ant(12:51:20 AM): wus da transportation
Ant(12:51:27 AM): did i ask u that already?
MiLLZ (12:52:43 AM): LOL
MiLLZ (12:52:44 AM): YES
MiLLZ (12:52:45 AM): GILL
MiLLZ (12:52:52 AM): Port authority
MiLLZ (12:52:56 AM): to Williams town
Ant (12:52:59 AM): lmfaooo
Ant (12:53:11 AM): WILLIAMS town fuck yall got sherriffs and shyt lol
Shaking my head.
This is what my LIFE consist of: AFTER Midnight =P
=Millzy.
Bee aRe Oh Oh Kay eL whY eN... COME AGAiN?
Just finished watching ABDC (America's Best Dance Crew for the people living under rocks) with my housemates. Of course anticipating RingMasters performance. I didn't get to write about their 1st performance because uh, apparently i didnt have this. But now i can.
When they got on stage, before they even began to dance, my punk ass was tearing up. A lot of people IM'd me laughing because Lil' Mama began to cry, but on some real shit-- i felt her.
It feels real good to see the people you grew up with trying to do something with their lives. Like--i know these nuccas. I'm from the East. I grew up on watching them in Cypress P's getting it popping at Block parties, and lets not forget where everything started.
FLEX SHOW CASE!
Flex in Brooklyn aired on Fridays.
Saturday-- nuccas was in the FlexHouse getting it poppin in Crown Heights.
And the Sundays, the day everyone feen'd for.....
Like i remember, 10th grade to 12th, one Sunday every month, getting dressed. Putting on our flyyest shit to go to The Masonic Temple in Bed Stuy, to watch every crew from Total Package to Bad Company to Off Limitz to Main Eventt, now known as RingMasters-- do they thing.
Crazy shit like jump off the balcony.
Like-- it was something you couldn't appreciate by just hearing about it.
You HAD to be there.
It felt great to see these boys go from BCAT, which only aired in Brooklyn. To being on one of Viacom's most watched stations-- MTV. Thats a BIG FUCKIN DEAL.
I laughed when i saw them standing there in all red.
lmao!
SOOOO BROOKLYN!! Word to me!
But i cant front though, I wasn't to impressed with this performace tonight like Lil'Mama said.
Maybe it's cause I'm used to seeing them go wayyy harder. And like Shane Sparks said, they gota come up with something else, and not repeat the same shit. In which i def wont mind cause thats their speciality and it always seems to amaze me. But i guess i feel where they coming from. They got this though!!! EASY! Brooklyn been on the map, i can't express that any further.
And its going to take more than just ONE post to let ya'll know what it is when it comes to my hood.But like said before-- these dudes came a longgg way and there's no taking that away.
They got the whole BeeKay on they back.
& we love them for that.
There's a huge sense of Pride man. I swear.Gutta.
Nugget.
Slick.
Reggie.
Marty McFly.
Spyda.
& Punchline.
Yall got this !
For info on the hommies check this out: http://www.mtv.com/ontv/dyn/dance_crew/crews.jhtml?crew=ringmasters
BROOKLYN WE GO OH SO HARD.
oh and for a little look of Flex in Brooklyn: Def check out this link-- Shit will blow yo mind.
Health, Weath, & East New York =)
Word.
=Milli F-n Millz=
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
RELATiONSHiPS ARE JUST 30 MiNUTES LONG...
I've been trying to break out of this 'no sleep' habit i got going on. Instead of going to bed at almost 4 each morning, im trying to get my ass in bed by the latest 2am. And so far i've been pretty successful with it. Until last night/this morning.
I'm knocked!
Drool, slob, eye curst, all that.
And there's this loud ass bang on my dorm room door. So me and my roommate Jenny roll over, look at each other to see who was going to actually get up and answer. I won-- Jenny got up.
Look at the time-- its 3 something.
So she opens, and its Tash.
"Get up son-- she needs us."
My girl Victoria is upstairs balling tears because her man for of almost 3 years tells her he does not want to be with her anymore. For whatever reason-- he cant seem to express vividly.
These guys were inseparable from the first day I met them.
But not to kill the story by telling HER story, basically he says that 'there are small things that they constantly disagree on and doesn't feel like they can be worked out."
Victoria respond to this is of course, "yes we can".
Long story short:
They had been going through their lil crisis. He told her that although they were going through their drama, he would hold up his promise of hitting her up, keeping things focused on them so that they can sooner than later get back on the right track. Apparently, he hadn't been, so Victoria went out her way to express to him that she wasn't feeling how he hasn't been keeping up with his end of the bargain. All she knows is, he starts barking odee, saying don't call him any more, a few name calling and that was that. Lets not forget, he had been "drinking." (I put the quotes around drinking because now everybody wana blame it on the goose!) Psssh. =/
I'm sitting there in my panties and tee, hair scarf and eyes still closed trying to figure out the science behind this maddness. And i begin to reflect back on my past relationships.
Victoria never really been through the drama of being with someone for so long, putting in her all and then at the end coming to find out that 1. all the time spent might have just been a waste of time and 2. she may never find a dude like this guy.
Being that this shit done happened to me before-- i already placed myself in her shoes. Myself, Tash, and a few of my housemates began to tell her that she just needs to let things flow. Its going to take a while before she actually gets over this man and regardless how long she sat there saying how much she hated him, the love was apparently something she cherished because if it had not been-- she would not be in the state she is now. A broken heart is hard to fix, love unreturned is like a question without an answer. And although he had been returning the love (for about 3 years), it seems it wasn't real enough for them to make amendments and really make things work.
And that is what Victoria wants-- to be able to get over this whole situation and change his mind.
But like i always say: Dudes will be dudes.
I'm not here to paint a bad picture of him because it's different from me being just his hommie then looking at him from my girls perspective.
I just cant-- cause i wasnt the one dating him.
But what i can do is understand where she's coming from.
All the heart ache and 'what if's' that i know, as im writing this is circulating in her mind.
I told her today at dinner that the best thing for her to do is stay focused on School-- that should be her #1 priority since her relationship is now no number.
The thing is though-- They say a drunk mind speaks a sober heart. So even though he just might say he was drunk and didn't mean it. Doesn't that work against him?
Why cant people just keep it real from the jump?
Why couldn't he just tell her why he doesn't want to continue their relationship?
And most importantly--what can she do to keep her time moving forward?
Any advice for her?
Anything ya'll can offer from previous experiences?
Leave it here.
"Relationships are just 30 minutes long...
Kind of heavy.
Maybe a lil Strong."
-Lupe.
Nothing last forever.
The best things must come to an end.
Now ask me why im single.
Shit.
Word.
=Milli Millz=
I'm knocked!
Drool, slob, eye curst, all that.
And there's this loud ass bang on my dorm room door. So me and my roommate Jenny roll over, look at each other to see who was going to actually get up and answer. I won-- Jenny got up.
Look at the time-- its 3 something.
So she opens, and its Tash.
"Get up son-- she needs us."
My girl Victoria is upstairs balling tears because her man for of almost 3 years tells her he does not want to be with her anymore. For whatever reason-- he cant seem to express vividly.
These guys were inseparable from the first day I met them.
But not to kill the story by telling HER story, basically he says that 'there are small things that they constantly disagree on and doesn't feel like they can be worked out."
Victoria respond to this is of course, "yes we can".
Long story short:
They had been going through their lil crisis. He told her that although they were going through their drama, he would hold up his promise of hitting her up, keeping things focused on them so that they can sooner than later get back on the right track. Apparently, he hadn't been, so Victoria went out her way to express to him that she wasn't feeling how he hasn't been keeping up with his end of the bargain. All she knows is, he starts barking odee, saying don't call him any more, a few name calling and that was that. Lets not forget, he had been "drinking." (I put the quotes around drinking because now everybody wana blame it on the goose!) Psssh. =/
I'm sitting there in my panties and tee, hair scarf and eyes still closed trying to figure out the science behind this maddness. And i begin to reflect back on my past relationships.
Victoria never really been through the drama of being with someone for so long, putting in her all and then at the end coming to find out that 1. all the time spent might have just been a waste of time and 2. she may never find a dude like this guy.
Being that this shit done happened to me before-- i already placed myself in her shoes. Myself, Tash, and a few of my housemates began to tell her that she just needs to let things flow. Its going to take a while before she actually gets over this man and regardless how long she sat there saying how much she hated him, the love was apparently something she cherished because if it had not been-- she would not be in the state she is now. A broken heart is hard to fix, love unreturned is like a question without an answer. And although he had been returning the love (for about 3 years), it seems it wasn't real enough for them to make amendments and really make things work.
And that is what Victoria wants-- to be able to get over this whole situation and change his mind.
But like i always say: Dudes will be dudes.
I'm not here to paint a bad picture of him because it's different from me being just his hommie then looking at him from my girls perspective.
I just cant-- cause i wasnt the one dating him.
But what i can do is understand where she's coming from.
All the heart ache and 'what if's' that i know, as im writing this is circulating in her mind.
I told her today at dinner that the best thing for her to do is stay focused on School-- that should be her #1 priority since her relationship is now no number.
The thing is though-- They say a drunk mind speaks a sober heart. So even though he just might say he was drunk and didn't mean it. Doesn't that work against him?
Why cant people just keep it real from the jump?
Why couldn't he just tell her why he doesn't want to continue their relationship?
And most importantly--what can she do to keep her time moving forward?
Any advice for her?
Anything ya'll can offer from previous experiences?
Leave it here.
"Relationships are just 30 minutes long...
Kind of heavy.
Maybe a lil Strong."
-Lupe.
Nothing last forever.
The best things must come to an end.
Now ask me why im single.
Shit.
Word.
=Milli Millz=
JUST ME BEiNG POLiTE
Just wanted to say Good Morning.
so GOOD MORNING guys.
Todays's schedule:
Radio Production 9-950 am
Concepts in Biology 11-1150am
Magazine Writing & Editing 12-1250pm
Spanish 1-150pm
Sidebar: i don't feel to good. =/
i shall return later.
-Milli.
so GOOD MORNING guys.
Todays's schedule:
Radio Production 9-950 am
Concepts in Biology 11-1150am
Magazine Writing & Editing 12-1250pm
Spanish 1-150pm
Sidebar: i don't feel to good. =/
i shall return later.
-Milli.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
SO iTS OFFiCiAL TiSSUE
The big homie is officially America's daddy.
Classes were cancelled from 11am-2pm so everyone was able to tune into the inauguration.
Due to lack of sleeep last night (went to bed at 4am)--i almost missed my 1st day of Biology Lab (9:30am)-- but thanks to the super duper bestie Tasha, she sent me a text saying:"Jam Get the fuck up!"
lmao.
Where would i be w. out her is what i ask!
Anyway; moving on.
At 11am, i get a text from my mommie sayin:"I hope you are watching your new president give his speech. You voted."
And i could't help but to cheese. Like odee CHEESEEEE. Too know that this man, who looks like me, when the press is not in his face--talk like me, and gota crazy swagg, even walks like me... has been elected to be the 44th president of the U.S.of A! Word to my moms, i am so thankful for being able to see this day.
I'm not going to give you word for word of his speech, because im pretty sure EVERYONE and they POPS were on it but i will def say that Barack Obama IS my inspiration and so is his gorgeous family.
One part of the Inauguration that had me cracking up though was the Benediction by Rev. Joseph E. Lowery.
This man said: "....help us work for that day when black will not be asked to give back, when brown can stick around, when yellow will be mellow, when the red man can get ahead, man, and when white will embrace what is right."
Now-- if ya'll didn't find that funny, yall wack!
That part had me on the FLOOR because he did not CARE. "When brown can stick around-- when white will embrace what is right." As funny as that shit sounds though, its 110% TRUE.
Tasha said that she's never been so proud to own an American Flag. And i totally agree.
It was all about my Puerto Rican and Panama Flag @ 1st! loll.
Naw, but on some real shit.
God Bless America.
God Bless the Obamas.
God Bless us All.
It has been made OFFICAL.
It is OFFICAL.
=Milli Millz=
Classes were cancelled from 11am-2pm so everyone was able to tune into the inauguration.
Due to lack of sleeep last night (went to bed at 4am)--i almost missed my 1st day of Biology Lab (9:30am)-- but thanks to the super duper bestie Tasha, she sent me a text saying:"Jam Get the fuck up!"
lmao.
Where would i be w. out her is what i ask!
Anyway; moving on.
At 11am, i get a text from my mommie sayin:"I hope you are watching your new president give his speech. You voted."
And i could't help but to cheese. Like odee CHEESEEEE. Too know that this man, who looks like me, when the press is not in his face--talk like me, and gota crazy swagg, even walks like me... has been elected to be the 44th president of the U.S.of A! Word to my moms, i am so thankful for being able to see this day.
I'm not going to give you word for word of his speech, because im pretty sure EVERYONE and they POPS were on it but i will def say that Barack Obama IS my inspiration and so is his gorgeous family.
One part of the Inauguration that had me cracking up though was the Benediction by Rev. Joseph E. Lowery.
This man said: "....help us work for that day when black will not be asked to give back, when brown can stick around, when yellow will be mellow, when the red man can get ahead, man, and when white will embrace what is right."
Now-- if ya'll didn't find that funny, yall wack!
That part had me on the FLOOR because he did not CARE. "When brown can stick around-- when white will embrace what is right." As funny as that shit sounds though, its 110% TRUE.
Tasha said that she's never been so proud to own an American Flag. And i totally agree.
It was all about my Puerto Rican and Panama Flag @ 1st! loll.
Naw, but on some real shit.
God Bless America.
God Bless the Obamas.
God Bless us All.
It has been made OFFICAL.
It is OFFICAL.
=Milli Millz=
Monday, January 19, 2009
FOR THE BiG HOMMiE OBAMA AKA O-BREEZY!
Its Midnight, officially the day of The Inauguration and i just got the odee bubble guts. Why? i have nooo clue. Just the thought of this powerful man at the podium, speaking to us all.
Yo-- shit is just crazy.
See, this is another reason why Life is Golden, as said like 10 minutes ago.
Now tell me I'm lying. =)
Welcome big hommie O-breezy.
We in here!
Easyyyyy!!
WORDD!
=Millzy 4 O breezy. ooowww!=
LiFE iS GOLDEN
...This is a statement I've been saying for a good minute now.
It basically came about one day... i was thinking about all the things i complain about, all the things i lack and all the things I'm overwhelmed with. And i came to the conclusion that even when times seem-- no-- rather when times ARE hard, we tend to lose sight of all the good that's been holding us up and together. I tend to do that alot. I'm a very happy person, dont get it twisted. Im not here to cry about how socially incorrect or whatever i am, because i can honestly say that i am a well rounded girl. But i do have my times where i be feeling like a fuckin re re.
My boy just lost his cousin downsouth last night, and he called me being to basically vent. A girl by the name of Nyasia passed away after a party in Brooklyn the other day, and i began to think about all the people that i've lost in the last 2 years.
Then when it comes to relationships (a bad break up)--school (you got a F or had to withdraw)--the big and small things that happen to us--whatever it maybe. When the bad things happen to us we just cant seem to grip around the reasons behind them. It's just always the question of 'WHY?' And i kind of feel like i know WHY.
The things that happen to us are to make us stronger. They happen so we can learn from it--cherish it and move on. They happen to everyone, just at different times. You're definitely not alone. I know how cliche that shit is, like we've heard that all our lives. But on some real shit-- its true.
Think of all the good.. Then put them up against the bad.
Maybee the bad just happens to actually weigh out the good.
but think about it-- you're still here.
Alive-- breathing--try smiling man.
Always know that we have to go through all the bad and worst before we can really feel and appreciate the good and great.
Real talk.
keep in mind yo.
that Life is Golden .
Word to da Muhvaland.
=Milli Millz=
It basically came about one day... i was thinking about all the things i complain about, all the things i lack and all the things I'm overwhelmed with. And i came to the conclusion that even when times seem-- no-- rather when times ARE hard, we tend to lose sight of all the good that's been holding us up and together. I tend to do that alot. I'm a very happy person, dont get it twisted. Im not here to cry about how socially incorrect or whatever i am, because i can honestly say that i am a well rounded girl. But i do have my times where i be feeling like a fuckin re re.
My boy just lost his cousin downsouth last night, and he called me being to basically vent. A girl by the name of Nyasia passed away after a party in Brooklyn the other day, and i began to think about all the people that i've lost in the last 2 years.
Then when it comes to relationships (a bad break up)--school (you got a F or had to withdraw)--the big and small things that happen to us--whatever it maybe. When the bad things happen to us we just cant seem to grip around the reasons behind them. It's just always the question of 'WHY?' And i kind of feel like i know WHY.
The things that happen to us are to make us stronger. They happen so we can learn from it--cherish it and move on. They happen to everyone, just at different times. You're definitely not alone. I know how cliche that shit is, like we've heard that all our lives. But on some real shit-- its true.
Think of all the good.. Then put them up against the bad.
Maybee the bad just happens to actually weigh out the good.
but think about it-- you're still here.
Alive-- breathing--try smiling man.
Always know that we have to go through all the bad and worst before we can really feel and appreciate the good and great.
Real talk.
keep in mind yo.
that Life is Golden .
Word to da Muhvaland.
=Milli Millz=
Sunday, January 18, 2009
SCHOOL vs. ME
So, i woke up this afternoon around 12:45, went to brunch w. my roommate Jenny, had mad french toast, eggs, home fries, and apple juice. I come back to my room and theres this email in my FirstClass account, (Firstclass is what students @ my school, MCLA Massachusettes College of liberal Arts, use as means of communication). Anyway-- i open the email, sent to me and some others, from this white chick and its entitled "Hip Hop/Urban Culture"
Here's the email:
Hey! What's up? I hope you all had a great winter break! I am writing to you because for my "Creating Story Theatre" class my group is doing the topic "Urban Culture". Our performance will be during the One Acts on April 28th-30th (performing on one of those days). We may need to work out a time that works for you to meet before then. All of us are not very familiar with hip hop dance and we were hoping maybe you guys could help out or recommend someone who could!
Some ways you can help:
--Teach us some hip hop dance/Step
--Perform as part of our skit (Or if you have a video from a performance we could show it on a projection screen)
--Cut a track(s) for us
--Answer some questions in an interview
I know that you all are probably wicked busy but this would be a great help! We are planning to include: hip-hop dance, music, slam poetry, body art, speed painting, graffiti art...ect. If you have any thoughts, suggestions or other ways you could help out please feel free to let me know. I hope you all have a good semester! Thanks!
BTW, this would be a great thing to put on a resume! :-D
Sincerely,
L.M.
I read it, and @ first nothing seemed wrong. But then i went back to the top to view who recieved this email, and not to my surprise it was all the African-American students on campus.
Mind you, my school is majority white and maybe about 60 blacks out of a campus of about 1,200.
A friend of mine Jamal, Replied to the email asking the recipients:
Hey,
Did everyone read the message below? LoL-- should any of us be offended? I honeslty don't know how I should feel about this... am I overreacting?
Jamal
Now, who told this girl that US black students know how to dance urban? Who told her to email all the black students on campus??? Who told her that i was BLACK?! How she assume all of us are African American??
So many levels of ignorance that i bet she didn't even catch on too. Just being mad fucking closed minded.
Sad right?
I didn't even reply back-- at least not yet.
Cuz i know for a fact, some fly shit will come off these lips.
And i got hella homework to do.
But ill be sure to show you guys my response once im done w. my homework.
All i could do is shake my head.
Am i overreacting?
.........
-Millzy.
Here's the email:
Hey! What's up? I hope you all had a great winter break! I am writing to you because for my "Creating Story Theatre" class my group is doing the topic "Urban Culture". Our performance will be during the One Acts on April 28th-30th (performing on one of those days). We may need to work out a time that works for you to meet before then. All of us are not very familiar with hip hop dance and we were hoping maybe you guys could help out or recommend someone who could!
Some ways you can help:
--Teach us some hip hop dance/Step
--Perform as part of our skit (Or if you have a video from a performance we could show it on a projection screen)
--Cut a track(s) for us
--Answer some questions in an interview
I know that you all are probably wicked busy but this would be a great help! We are planning to include: hip-hop dance, music, slam poetry, body art, speed painting, graffiti art...ect. If you have any thoughts, suggestions or other ways you could help out please feel free to let me know. I hope you all have a good semester! Thanks!
BTW, this would be a great thing to put on a resume! :-D
Sincerely,
L.M.
I read it, and @ first nothing seemed wrong. But then i went back to the top to view who recieved this email, and not to my surprise it was all the African-American students on campus.
Mind you, my school is majority white and maybe about 60 blacks out of a campus of about 1,200.
A friend of mine Jamal, Replied to the email asking the recipients:
Hey,
Did everyone read the message below? LoL-- should any of us be offended? I honeslty don't know how I should feel about this... am I overreacting?
Jamal
Now, who told this girl that US black students know how to dance urban? Who told her to email all the black students on campus??? Who told her that i was BLACK?! How she assume all of us are African American??
So many levels of ignorance that i bet she didn't even catch on too. Just being mad fucking closed minded.
Sad right?
I didn't even reply back-- at least not yet.
Cuz i know for a fact, some fly shit will come off these lips.
And i got hella homework to do.
But ill be sure to show you guys my response once im done w. my homework.
All i could do is shake my head.
Am i overreacting?
.........
-Millzy.
iNTRODUCTiON: SUBJECT TO CHANGE
Ah hem!
- Allow me to introduce to myself.
Name is Jamila; mostly known as J-Millz;Millie;Millzy;Jay-Pay-$0;High Yellow; or as seen in the title-Milli Millz. I'n not into this whole INTRODUCTORY paragraph thing-- it brings me back to High school w. all the topic sentences & shit like that.
I've been waiting a while to begin this bloq of mine, but since im not that great at makin the banners and all that flyy shitt-- i relied on my handy dandy best friend Miss. SARAH NOELLE and here it is. I didnt want to begin posting and have you guys readin my shit on some ashy ass lay out. Ya diggy?! But now that its decent--- i can get on w. my show yo. =)
I'm not going to sit here & write a whole "ABOUT ME" section, but for some quick facts:
i am a Proud East New York Brooklynnite--currently resting my head in my 2nd home-- SouthSyde Jamaica Queens (Nucca you herd me?! 50 voice)--
I tend to curse alot &
I'm trying to cut down on the 'N' word.
But it is what it is...
Why name my blog WORD?
Well-- because for one, its the most used phrase in my vocab, and 2-- WORD dates back to b4 i was born. Being used as a Statement, Question, Description of something, Reaction, or simply said when theres NO reaction at all.
WORD?
WORD.
SAY WORD?!
lol.
You get my drift.
As we get deeper into my world (this bloq), you'll learn more and more about me. Through my words, which i use to communicate w. the outsiders that are, of cousre, not inside of me (Pause).
Just the way i THINK is retarded-- and my ideas for this bloq are SICK.
Whether you enjoy it or not though--- this shall be some real, raw, hilarious, any and everything you can think of shit.
These are words coming from a full time English Communications, 19 year old, Brooklyn born, Hispanic Black girl.
Subject to change-- cuz everyday i learn something new about myself.
I mean, like-- who really stays the same anyway?
The Kee Kee has began.
Let me rock yo.
Word!
=Milli Millz=
- Allow me to introduce to myself.
Name is Jamila; mostly known as J-Millz;Millie;Millzy;Jay-Pay-$0;High Yellow; or as seen in the title-Milli Millz. I'n not into this whole INTRODUCTORY paragraph thing-- it brings me back to High school w. all the topic sentences & shit like that.
I've been waiting a while to begin this bloq of mine, but since im not that great at makin the banners and all that flyy shitt-- i relied on my handy dandy best friend Miss. SARAH NOELLE and here it is. I didnt want to begin posting and have you guys readin my shit on some ashy ass lay out. Ya diggy?! But now that its decent--- i can get on w. my show yo. =)
I'm not going to sit here & write a whole "ABOUT ME" section, but for some quick facts:
i am a Proud East New York Brooklynnite--currently resting my head in my 2nd home-- SouthSyde Jamaica Queens (Nucca you herd me?! 50 voice)--
I tend to curse alot &
I'm trying to cut down on the 'N' word.
But it is what it is...
Why name my blog WORD?
Well-- because for one, its the most used phrase in my vocab, and 2-- WORD dates back to b4 i was born. Being used as a Statement, Question, Description of something, Reaction, or simply said when theres NO reaction at all.
WORD?
WORD.
SAY WORD?!
lol.
You get my drift.
As we get deeper into my world (this bloq), you'll learn more and more about me. Through my words, which i use to communicate w. the outsiders that are, of cousre, not inside of me (Pause).
Just the way i THINK is retarded-- and my ideas for this bloq are SICK.
Whether you enjoy it or not though--- this shall be some real, raw, hilarious, any and everything you can think of shit.
These are words coming from a full time English Communications, 19 year old, Brooklyn born, Hispanic Black girl.
Subject to change-- cuz everyday i learn something new about myself.
I mean, like-- who really stays the same anyway?
The Kee Kee has began.
Let me rock yo.
Word!
=Milli Millz=
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