Btw.
Drake's Mixtape is something like CODiNE.
On replay all day.
Nuff said.
WORD.
Friday, February 20, 2009
REALiZATiON
Been gone for a minute now im back with the Jump- off.
i havent been posting for a while, honestly--i just got kinda bored with it and i been all over the place; Literally and Mentally.
Alot of shit has gone down for the past week that caused me not to post. Some i rather not touch bases with but alot having to do with Relationships, Friendships, anything that ends in 'ships' basically.
Yesterday, i realized for the very first time in the 19 years of my life that i really do not give a fuck about a lot of things-- that i once did. I always seem to put other peoples feelings into consideration when most of the time, those people never even think twice about how Jamila just might feel. So with that said, i've been searching for a way to keep myself happy instead of worrying about others and their issues. That's all i ever done for people that i consider my nuccas, is look out for them and in the long run, their loyalty to me disperses into the air, into the cracks of the ground in which we walk on, into nowhere. And im just about tired of putting my hand out when in need, and noone being there to grab it for me. Not that i need that, but it's nice every once and a while to have that person do so for you.
i got my gurls, that ive been thru DRAMA with since day 1, regardless of our ups and downs, they never fail me to bounce back. Then theres other friends that rather put me on the side because they think they are the only muhvafuq's goin thru whatever thay maybe goin through. New Flash: You're not. But like i said, I'm good off alot of you mofo's.
Its time to Realize we may become better people if we tried to help ourselves find happiness, rather than feeling sorry for ourselves.
Ungrateful people kill me.
And im know that this wont be the last time i encounter something like this.
All it takes is preparation.
And im good.
Hopefully ill get back to this blogging shit in full speed like i once was.
But im real focused on school and family.
If you dont understand then you just dont.
I wont ever force one to do so.
With a luke warm heart-- cuz she jus stopped giving a fuck.
=Milli Millz=
i havent been posting for a while, honestly--i just got kinda bored with it and i been all over the place; Literally and Mentally.
Alot of shit has gone down for the past week that caused me not to post. Some i rather not touch bases with but alot having to do with Relationships, Friendships, anything that ends in 'ships' basically.
Yesterday, i realized for the very first time in the 19 years of my life that i really do not give a fuck about a lot of things-- that i once did. I always seem to put other peoples feelings into consideration when most of the time, those people never even think twice about how Jamila just might feel. So with that said, i've been searching for a way to keep myself happy instead of worrying about others and their issues. That's all i ever done for people that i consider my nuccas, is look out for them and in the long run, their loyalty to me disperses into the air, into the cracks of the ground in which we walk on, into nowhere. And im just about tired of putting my hand out when in need, and noone being there to grab it for me. Not that i need that, but it's nice every once and a while to have that person do so for you.
i got my gurls, that ive been thru DRAMA with since day 1, regardless of our ups and downs, they never fail me to bounce back. Then theres other friends that rather put me on the side because they think they are the only muhvafuq's goin thru whatever thay maybe goin through. New Flash: You're not. But like i said, I'm good off alot of you mofo's.
Its time to Realize we may become better people if we tried to help ourselves find happiness, rather than feeling sorry for ourselves.
Ungrateful people kill me.
And im know that this wont be the last time i encounter something like this.
All it takes is preparation.
And im good.
Hopefully ill get back to this blogging shit in full speed like i once was.
But im real focused on school and family.
If you dont understand then you just dont.
I wont ever force one to do so.
With a luke warm heart-- cuz she jus stopped giving a fuck.
=Milli Millz=
Friday, February 13, 2009
ALL SMiLES
It's been almost a week since i've been on here. Although i've explained countless times my moves and motivations--- forgive me. =)
It is 7:40 am and i am wideee awake. I got a 9 am class, but whatever thats light.
This week was alot to endure man. From budget meetings to Step practice to drama to just basic life shit we gota deal with on a day to day basis.
So far my Step Squad "Nexxus" routine for the Step Competition on Feb 28th is sick. I think we actually have a chance at placing this year man, like 4realize.
My radio show "Relevant Radio: Where Everything Matters" has been comin along smoothlyyy. Our Valentine Day special was funny as hell. Shout outs to my partner bigg booty Mo'e. Holla!
Also, Happy Birthday to my punk ass Relz, love you ugly.
Talkin about Valentines day real quick.
i have one =)
A Valentine that is.
Can't give yall all the detail but just know he's paying me a little visit here at MCLA.
This is the first time i've ever allowed anyone to come out here and see me. I'm just real funny when it comes to having company out here, i always tell people ill wait til i see them during a break or something.
Only this time-- it's different.
I kind of... Gave in. If you must.
lol.
This weekend is gona be a kee kee ya'll.
My eyes are def gettin heavy but i have to go finish cleanin the house for this "visitor".
ha!
Love yall.
Oh, btw. I may be M.i.A once again 4 the weekend. But once i get baq, ill have all the details. lmao.
Yall def deserve it mane!
With a smile & heart, a luke warm one.
=Milli Millz=
It is 7:40 am and i am wideee awake. I got a 9 am class, but whatever thats light.
This week was alot to endure man. From budget meetings to Step practice to drama to just basic life shit we gota deal with on a day to day basis.
So far my Step Squad "Nexxus" routine for the Step Competition on Feb 28th is sick. I think we actually have a chance at placing this year man, like 4realize.
My radio show "Relevant Radio: Where Everything Matters" has been comin along smoothlyyy. Our Valentine Day special was funny as hell. Shout outs to my partner bigg booty Mo'e. Holla!
Also, Happy Birthday to my punk ass Relz, love you ugly.
Talkin about Valentines day real quick.
i have one =)
A Valentine that is.
Can't give yall all the detail but just know he's paying me a little visit here at MCLA.
This is the first time i've ever allowed anyone to come out here and see me. I'm just real funny when it comes to having company out here, i always tell people ill wait til i see them during a break or something.
Only this time-- it's different.
I kind of... Gave in. If you must.
lol.
This weekend is gona be a kee kee ya'll.
My eyes are def gettin heavy but i have to go finish cleanin the house for this "visitor".
ha!
Love yall.
Oh, btw. I may be M.i.A once again 4 the weekend. But once i get baq, ill have all the details. lmao.
Yall def deserve it mane!
With a smile & heart, a luke warm one.
=Milli Millz=
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
REFOCUS
Time 2 refocus my microscope on the things that arent apparent to the naked eye.Theres alot of things hidden between the cracks in which we step on & in return-- A great Listener will make a great Leader with other substances that add to their potiental.
-Me.
Just how im feeling right now.
Studying for my Biology Test 2mor.
in Millz i trust.
& nothing else.
Word.
-Me.
Just how im feeling right now.
Studying for my Biology Test 2mor.
in Millz i trust.
& nothing else.
Word.
Monday, February 9, 2009
MY WEEKEND
Aye! Wuss goodieee fam-lay?! This weekend was coooool. But 1st and 4most let me just say that I'm not goin to talk about 'The Grammys" because of cousre, im pretty sure that everyone watched it, to keep it a hunnit, i didn't even watch the whole thing because i was too busy writing a last minute paper. I did see T.i & J.T though (sexy asses) but jeah!-- moving along.Oh! and i know yall heard about Chris Breezy washing Rihanna up. LMFAO. It's been said because she gave him herpes. I'm sayin though, i woulda wyle'd her up too. Shit. But that is neither here nor there so it is what it is. People act like entertainers aren't human, forgetting that before they are ANYTHING, they are HUMANS. Smh.
I just came from a meeting with my Magazine Writing & Editing professor. She proofread my story, which like i said before i'll be writing about fashion on campus and as she read my opening statement she begins to chuckle and says, "Jamila, you need to be let out your cage! because you are just an animal when it comes to writing. You have one of the most original voices in writing i've come across. And the potiental is great." Yes, that made my day. =)
Saturday me and my gurls went to a Pre-Valentines Day gala at a near by hotel, pics coming soon. but in the meantime between time, here are some pictures from Friday night at the Kappa House. They not in order but wudeva !
*Millzy was the name that they gave me*
I just came from a meeting with my Magazine Writing & Editing professor. She proofread my story, which like i said before i'll be writing about fashion on campus and as she read my opening statement she begins to chuckle and says, "Jamila, you need to be let out your cage! because you are just an animal when it comes to writing. You have one of the most original voices in writing i've come across. And the potiental is great." Yes, that made my day. =)
Saturday me and my gurls went to a Pre-Valentines Day gala at a near by hotel, pics coming soon. but in the meantime between time, here are some pictures from Friday night at the Kappa House. They not in order but wudeva !
*Millzy was the name that they gave me*
Sunday, February 8, 2009
TO NiCE--TO HUMBLE.
So i just got back from my school's Pre Valentine's Day Gala. It was cool-- me n da girls looked real nice as usual Pics up soon. =)
Theres alot of things on my mind right now. One of em being "RELATIONSHIPS"
Just sitting here in my room: No music, no t.v. Just this blog, my thoughts and i.
Just wrote this. This is the raw verison-- just fresh out my brain cells. lol.
Before you knock it tho-- try to understand it.
Nite =)
Theres alot of things on my mind right now. One of em being "RELATIONSHIPS"
Just sitting here in my room: No music, no t.v. Just this blog, my thoughts and i.
Just wrote this. This is the raw verison-- just fresh out my brain cells. lol.
Before you knock it tho-- try to understand it.
Nite =)
To humble-- too nice
They say im too humble.
Im too nice.
They ask me why i care so much.
Why i bother to think twice.
I cant help who i am.
Nor how i was born to be.
but i seen sincerity in your heart.
Some thing that nobody else had seen.
I let you step all over me, because i fear losing you as a friend.
But they say im dumb and too nice, im fallin 4 it again.
Depicting this picture with no picture just a blank-- empty page.
These words are my angers, these words are my hearts rage.
Which paints on that paper
Im too nice.
They ask me why i care so much.
Why i bother to think twice.
I cant help who i am.
Nor how i was born to be.
but i seen sincerity in your heart.
Some thing that nobody else had seen.
I let you step all over me, because i fear losing you as a friend.
But they say im dumb and too nice, im fallin 4 it again.
Depicting this picture with no picture just a blank-- empty page.
These words are my angers, these words are my hearts rage.
Which paints on that paper
and now that its complete
-- we can hang up the frame.
Humble and nice.
Get shot, or be sliced.
Damn, why cant i do anything right?
I sit in my room and plot.
On how to get rid of this soft spot.
that i have for you.
Say im through-- but in reality-- thats just real old news.
whose who?
Whats what?
Why do i care?
Who gives a fuck?
Hoping St Patricks day is tomor, cuz im in need of some luck.
im talkin a -s- a- p.
Not tryna turn this into a sad story, but damn, why me?
All this hurt, phoniness, things i cant even comprehend.
Im just to nice and too humble.
pssh... '
Humble and nice.
Get shot, or be sliced.
Damn, why cant i do anything right?
I sit in my room and plot.
On how to get rid of this soft spot.
that i have for you.
Say im through-- but in reality-- thats just real old news.
whose who?
Whats what?
Why do i care?
Who gives a fuck?
Hoping St Patricks day is tomor, cuz im in need of some luck.
im talkin a -s- a- p.
Not tryna turn this into a sad story, but damn, why me?
All this hurt, phoniness, things i cant even comprehend.
Im just to nice and too humble.
pssh... '
this shit has definitly got to end.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
MAiN EVENTT!
Aight-- so ya'll should already know. Im HELLA tight right now.
My boys Main Eventt also known as RingMasters just got voted off the show tonight.
They def did they thing and "America" aint really understand the art behind flexing but you know what?
BROOKLYNNN!
Went out with a bang.
FUQ WHAT THEY TALKIN ABOUT!
Main Eventt!
Nugget, Reggie, i love yall!
Holla yo.
Brooklynnnn, sayy WORD!
=Milli Millz=
My boys Main Eventt also known as RingMasters just got voted off the show tonight.
They def did they thing and "America" aint really understand the art behind flexing but you know what?
BROOKLYNNN!
Went out with a bang.
FUQ WHAT THEY TALKIN ABOUT!
Main Eventt!
Nugget, Reggie, i love yall!
Holla yo.
Brooklynnnn, sayy WORD!
=Milli Millz=
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